New York is a lonely city.
In New York City it feels like there are so many people, yet we are all so lonely. Everyone is running at the same speed and I feel as though no one stops and looks at each other.
To me it feel like there is such emphasis on Valentine’s Day to either be in a relationship or single and bitter. I’ve always been single over this period and I will admit that every year I am single and bitter, but I’m also many other things. Valentine’s Day doesn’t make me feel as though I am not loved or appreciated. It makes me reflect on people I’ve dated, people I’ve known, people I wish I knew, and everything else in between. I think back to the times where I’ve dated someone and I just think, “geez, I’m a really shitty boyfriend sometimes”. Maybe that’s why I’m single?
The things I miss about being in a relationship are not the superficial things like going on dates, having someone on my arm and knowing someone is “mine”, I miss knowing that there is someone who truly cares for me, someone who I can always rely on, someone who I can give everything to and feel as though it is safe. You don’t always get that when you’re alone. I suppose what I’m saying is that the times in which we do fall we just hope there is someone there to pick us up. When you’re single, there isn’t always someone there.
If you really do love someone don’t show it just once a year. It should be something celebrated everyday.
PS: I hope he treats you well.