Fuck this flu.
I don’t have time for this shit. I’m working—I’ll stay hydrated, drink plenty of tea, and sleep a couple extra hours tonight, but I’ve got to study.
- email professor re: masthead; email printers/ publishers
- email recruiters
- job search—update application to-do list
- revise monthly study plan
- revise daily schedule
- edit K’s resume
- tracking system for new year’s goals
- create binder for subject matter outlines
- background reading on MPT
- background reading on persuasive brief—create tip sheet
- work on Fed Civ Pro outline
I really want to be better at color guard.
I’m trying so hard, and I want to be really good. But my instructor called me over today and told me to stop hesitating at the beginning of each set, because it’s making me behind.
I guess it shouldn’t be that hard, but I over think everything. I forget the work, go too fast, too slow, mess up the counts, drop flags, step on the wrong foot, everything. I don’t want to disappoint our drum majors or our guard captains. I don’t want to mess up in front of everyone. Every time we listen to the judge’s tape, I’m always expecting to hear, “You should really do something about that red-haired color guard.”
I know what I’m doing wrong, why is it so hard for me to fix?