I only came online to speak to you

but since you’re not online, i guess i’ll just have my hot chocolate, watch the rest of this episode of living single and go to bed, anticipating seeing you tomorrow.

i would really enjoy not anticipating.
i would really enjoy being able to easily take care of things.
i would really enjoy not waiting.
i would really enjoy being aware.
i would really enjoy a teleportation device.
i would really enjoy getting things out.
i would really enjoy holding things in better.
i would really enjoy my thoughts to be re-watched.
i would really enjoy a lot of thing.

but all these things i would enjoy,
are over run,
by me enjoying the unknown.

i love surprises.

though i wish life was easier,
shit would suck if every thing was just easily handed to me.

i like to work for it.