So I took my mom out for Dinner and...
As expected.. I completely lost it emotionally..
Why? Well, she randomly brought up my dad… she triggered me basically and I just completely shut down. I stopped eatting and my eyes began to water up, which I hid with hiding my face in my arms on the table.
Top it off, on the way home, she was asking me a question about her business and I could only answer her with “I don’t know” in an emotional tone.. and she said, “fine, I’ll shut up.” Which triggered me even more cause whenever she does that, I feel like complete shit…
None of what happened tonight is her fault but mine.. I’m a whore of a son, one she never deserved to have… I’m so messed up in so many ways that sometimes.. I just wish… ….
I just wish my friend, if they want to be my friend anymore, could have just freaking pulled through for me just this f’ing once… Maybe tonight could have been different… maybe…
I’m sorry Angel, I wasn’t the strong person you wish I could have been for my mom tonight..
((EDIT: You wanna know the saddest thing?? I brought my nice camera with me thinking I’d be able to ask someone to take our picture at the restaurant…. The picture never happened…))
I saw the Gaston from Disneyworld on my dash and it reminded me of when I saw him and he was so great when our friend was about to take our picture he just PULLED ME (all of us mostly me though) IN REALLY CLOSE AND SAID KINDA QUIETLY “try to look as pretty as me” AND WE LAUGHED REALLY HARD
and then later we saw peter and I don’t remember how Gaston came up but he was mentioned and Peter just stopped signing our autograph books for a second and looked at us and was like “…Girly man?” and WOW DISNEY WAS SO GREAT I WANT TO GO BACK
angellikesbutts replied to your post: So I measured myself according to that post…
duuuuude i did the measuring thing and discovered i’ve been using the wrong bra for like 8 years. TUMBLR TEACHES YOU SO MUCH.
I’ve always known I’ve been the wrong size or at least I have known for like a year or two but just been like FUCK ITTT LOL JCP BRAS 2 FO 1
i just feel really uncomfortable lately and I don’t want saggy boobies so new bra for me!
Whaaaat is your biggest turn on? /generic TMI question oops
My biggest turn on… Mhmm..
That is a very “hard one” *Wonk Wonk*
Hmmm.. My recent turn on is a girl who is really adorable, but who isn’t a “blondie”. Girls that have muscles are a really hot turn on, especially while they work out. I also find small boobs really attractive, but I still find medium to well-shaped boobs also hot. :P
But to top everything though, intelligence is a super turn on, not in my pants, but in my heart. Such a big turn on… <3 (But according to a friend, intelligence isn’t a turn on… what.. x’D)