So just to recap

• I hooked up with Roman but didn’t actually sleep with him, messed around a little bit the next day, then got the just friends talk the following night.
• PJ and I are just friends who are really touchy feely.
• When Roman was too drunk to walk me back to my room, Shawn walked me back and then proceeded to tell me he was trying really hard not to come onto me.  Shawn is an 18 year old recovering cocaine addict who has a girlfriend.  And he could get it if he were single.
• Trigger (whose real name is Jared) literally did not notice me coming onto him all semester until I told him that I’d been hitting on him.  He then asked me to go back to his apartment with him, where we made out for a little bit and then went to sleep.  The next day, he told me that he was still in love with his ex, and he doesn’t think it’s fair to me to hang out that way again.

THIS IS A WOMEN’S COLLEGE.  IT’S A MONTH INTO THE SEMESTER.  WHAT THE FUCK AM I EVEN DOING?