tell me what you think. it needs revised

I like to think of you

                Before my earthquake          heart ruptured

                                      Down the           fault line

             Before the words we said         and the friendship

                                          That has yet to return

                I remember when your eyes twinkled for me

Or so I thought.

I like to think of you

                Not reading this

        Ever

                      But undoubtedly you will

                                       You just won’t know who it’s about

            Will you?

I like to think of you

                As just a friend

      I know I’m lying to myself but maybe

                         Just

                                  maybe

If I scream it into the depths of space

                I’ll believe it

                                At least enough to be happy.

I like to think of you

                                As misunderstood

Not malicious

           But often I wonder if that’s true.

I can keep my mind away

                When I’m smiling

   In the direction I should be

But when I’m alone

                                Thoughts from North and South

                Battle for dominance

                                                I already know which should win

But

Is that what I want?

 _________

And kids I know, if you read this, don’t grill me too badly. I’ve already made my decision.