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braDLEY AND EOIN ARE LIVING TOGETHER ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS NO NO
ugh they’d be disgusting frats boys i bet all they do is play video games in their underwear while eating out of take out cartons
how has bradley not broken his face by bitchfacing at eoin i mean that’s gotta be a 24/7 thing by now
i bet their neighbors are old ladies who think they’re the sweetest couple cause they always help them with their grocery
omg i bet when colin comes over, eoin’s constantly making stupid innuendos and wagging his eyebrow at literally any physical touch they make and leers at them until bradley kicks him out
i bet bradley has a safe where he puts eoin’s phone when he’s drunk
i bet eoin left bradley and colin all alone when bradley finally came back, but he left rose petals and scented candles everywhere and let’s get it on was softly playing in the background, which colin laughed hysterically at and bradley glared at
yeah, they went to colin’s instead
im JUS T SO UPSET colin and bradley and eoin together again, fucking around with each other and being dumb boys
COURAGE MAGIC STRENGTH
Things like permanent markers
Mark her skin
She draws a line
And it seems permanent.
A little bit of rehab
A little bit of relapse
But it’ll be okay
A little bit of rehab
A little bit of relapse
I’m not okay
For a little while
Bite your lip
Close your eyes
Till it goes away
You wrote me a letter
Written in your own blood
You showed me how you felt
By the way you exposed your arms
Is everyone berating themselves for being shippers? Or feeling angry that they feel they’re meant to be berating themselves?
I’m used to that feeling, because shame is sort of my default position when it comes to fandom, not that I’m proud of that. Objectively I know that fandoms are fucking amazing. Fanwork as a whole is some of the most creative, engaging, accessible stuff there is, and the level of collaborative, creative dialogue around a shared universe anid shared characters is absolutely astounding. But it doesn’t take much to be reduced to shame about it. I think that’s unfortunate, but it’s a tough one to fight externally and internally.
I’m not sure what prompted the conversation to start with, but I presume it’s some fans’ level of passionate, vocal devotion and very specific demands. I’ve always been in the “please don’t look at us, pretend we don’t exist, let us do our own thing” camp, though I understand how problematic that is. I still don’t really know how to deal with the powers that be talking about us and engaging with us directly. It’s often very cool, but sometimes it has that dreaded chilling effect. Passionate engagement is very easy to get judgey about (and feel judged about).
I guess there are two ways to approach fannish activity (a lie: there are more than two. But for the moment, rhetorically two): prediction, and interpretation. You can engage in order to guess the outcome of a series, and then spill over into begging creators for your preferred solution, because otherwise the whole thing is literally ruined for you, or interpretation, knowing that your own take on things is variable, and what happens is pretty much always beloved fodder. Traditionally gen and het fandoms have taken the lead on the former (“will they or won’t they?”) and slash fandoms generally opted for the latter. It’s interesting to see a slash fandom genuinely shift into the former category. Maybe it’s a good sign, I don’t know.
That said: it’s a super annoying thing when you’re in the middle of telling a story and someone tells you how it has to end, or what you have to do, or what you have to include for them to still like your story. It just is. Especially for those of us who plan extensively, there’s no way to respond to that in a productive way. At that point the story is what it is, the writer has a vision, and she’s going to execute it they way she wants to. (Or: she should. don’t bow to pressure! Trust your inner vision!) If you want something different than what you think you’re going to get, go make your own. So that’s what we do: we make our own.
The final results of creative work are generally best when everyone goes with their heart and makes their own best story, not what someone else demands that they do. Trust your storyteller, avoid demanding that they conform to your expectations or desires, and if there’s a version of their story burning a hole in your soul, write it yourself. Only you can make your own dreams come true. A creator’s first job is to please themselves. I don’t have the stats on this, but my hunch is that when’s creator creates a story he loves, we love it too.
No actor, creator, and producer can shame me as much as I can shame myself. So I’m going to skip the shame spiral this time and construct some stories instead. There’s no end of stories.