Sudden DB5K nostalgia

I was watching some old videos of DBSK (performances, music videos of older songs, …), and it just hit me. I just felt so sad sad sad sad sad sad sad all of a sudden. 

And I really normally don’t get like this. I’m a rational person - until I start feeling things. 

Gah, just when I think I’m all over it I just end up making myself sad again. Because I’ll never feel that inspired and happy and moved again just by watching a performance. I’ll never be that kind of fan again. 

Honestly, I never thought I would be any kind of fan until DBSK happened, and I ended up watching those performances over and over and over and over again until their voices were almost as familiar to me as those of my closest friends. Even though I don’t know these people and they don’t know me, somehow they managed to break down a wall I never even knew existed - they made me truly feel  raw emotion again, which, though I didn’t notice it, I hadn’t in a long while. 

And now I’m just glad youtube exists. Glad modern technology exists and I can keep watching and watching and watching and watching these things over and over and over again, even if the videos are now tainted with sadness. All of them. But that’s okay, because they’re still there and I can just rewatch them over and over again until I don’t feel so sad anymore. 

God, I love modern technology more than I can explain right now. Imagine not having CDs or recorded videos. It would make seeing a live performance more meaningful, but it would also be so much worse once the performances would stop. But luckily, once recorded, it’s there forever. Besides, if youtube didn’t exist? I  would never have heard those songs that somehow flipped my world upside down. In a good way. 

So, back to nostalgia feels for the last day of the year~ And to bury them again for the new year to come. Idk why I always get like this this time of the year