what's going on...

ended up staying up late yesterday singing just to be in a good mood. was it worth it …yes. I don’t really like going to sleep confuzzled. I don’t get as much sleep.
This weekend has just been …. strange. I don’t know how to explain or in what way. Days weeks from now are all planned out and scheduled. Overwhelming? Well I’ll just go for one day at a time. Went to mass with my dad today. On the way there I thought I was about to cry. I don’t really know why. Was it because of Mass? Because I was spending time with my dad and we were talking about my grandma? I don’t know yet…. It’s admirable when you see people who have a vocation and devout love for God. I had heard about someone’s experience when they witness the consecration and it was unbelievable. In a good way of course. Just the way they described their love of God. I was seriously left speechless and I kind of wanted wished I could express myself in that way. I still am not sure but I ask God for guidance about my vocation. I mean communion is a big deal. I remember it was the most exciting day and I was a year late in doing my first communion but it always amazed me when the gifts would be brought up, offered and the bread and wine was “changed into the body and blood of Christ”. I still get a little emotional and tear up when I’m finally about to receive communion sometimes. It’s not all the time, but it’s a good feeling.

as for how school is going,….meh infatuation is no fun, it’s good to have a reminder that I shouldn’t get caught up in all the hullabaloo. yay for human emotions.

as for this week, I kind of want to set small goals to make changes in class like actually participating… I know it might not seem like a big deal but for an introvert it sure is buddy. That’s one. The other is to ask people for high five’s! yea!! and then asking them a random question like what do you think is funny? or what makes you turn your frown upside down? ok well not exactly like that…. college kids these days. They only eat food. Paper Valentine cards are “not a big deal” but that’s okay I’ll just give them to all the other kids who get just as excited like Charlie Brown getting a Valentine’s Day card from the little red haired girl.

For now just listening to il Volo - O sole mio (sounds like posole’ mio); E Piu’ ti penso, El Reloj, La luna hizo esto, il Mondo