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gratitude list for today and yesterday:
- wearing my binder outside of the house
- getting free pancakes at IHOP w/ Ink
- us singing “once upon a dream” dramatically together at the table
- motherfucking good-tasting dinosaur shaped sugar cookies, my life is perfect
- messing with the acrylic brush in SAI and discovering great things (what a dream)
- watching lots of .Hack//SIGN
- baking cookies at whatever hour it was in the morning
- having a beer for the first time in like, a month
- talking to my grandpa on the phone
- listening to my grandpa’s old studio music
- saving 0.20c a gallon on gas by buying 4 boxes of cereal (I will never eat anything else ever again)
- not engaging in relapse behavior (I was in such a mood earlier, I wanted to hurt myself, but I got through it)
- “THEY LISA FRANK TRAPPER KEEPER” never gets over it, never
- that fucking video of that comedy skit over ROTG footage. I will never fucking get over “…even in your head, which means NEVER, you are NEVER growing up” jesus fuck
- ART OF HICCUP TOPPING ! GOD BLESS THE ENTIRE NORTH AMERICAN CONTINENT
- finally making plans to art collab w/ Reba
- leaving the house for the first time in 3 days
- HB’s entire great self, lord what a person (would you look at those guns????????? help)
- Deanna and all of her super attractive babeness all up on my dash for the past two days
- deactivating my facebook account
- finally back to the point of completely and utterly loathing soft drinks
- getting around to listening to Strata’s more recent stuff and diggin’ it
- chapstick, the tool of the gods
- Lucy’s anime hair
- finding out that Ólafur Arnalds is coming out with a new album in April?????????????? thank universe
- Ink’s unbridled rage @ me immediately responded with “tAKE ME AWAaaaaaaayy” and continuing to sing “pocket full of sunshine” at her when she asked “did you want to go to a place?” after we got out of IHOP. (IS THAT NOT A SUPER VAGUE QUESTION? GOD)
Today, after school, was the day it happened.
I’ve been waiting patiently for this moment for quite some time now.
I’ve sat in the foyer just watching him for about an hour, thinking of the best way of confessing to Chay.
I then told myself to sit near him, and that I did.
He scooted closer, but of course I lost my confidence (and his friend followed). At that moment I felt like I had lost my last opportunity.
But he walks away towards my friends (whom im more comfortable with), I jump up with confidence and run to him.
I softly say, “Hey Chay, can we talk? Like you wanna walk around with me?”
“Yea, why not?” He smiled. So we walk through the hallways and there were so many people around (not the best place to have a private conversation btw) but we ended up walking outside and we slowly comes to a stop and cautiously, I said these exact words “Okay so this is really hard for me to admit but I like you, like really like you and I just thought that you had the right to know” as i say these words.. I look away because im afraid of what he has to say in response and I feel myself about to cry so i force a smile on my face to hide my emotions. But I feel a little relieved when he turned to me and said “Okay Well, I kind of like you too but.. im not ready to ask for anything right now” I look at him and I say “I know, I had a feeling but I just thought that I should tell you.” He replied “Its okay, im glad you told me” I felt like breaking down. But I couldnt, not in front of him.
He turns to hug me and it was almost like the greatest hug I’ve ever experienced.
I needed reassurance and while were hugging I ask “so Its okay to like you right?” He laughs and says “yes, of course.” We walk eachother back inside and I sit with my friends and he sits with his.
Thats pretty much how my day ended.
Although I should feel thankful that At least now I know and even though I expected him not to be ready, it still kind of hurt. But overall I am thankful.
Someone please tell me how should I feel?
Ngayong araw, may iniintay ako,may ififix, at may naalala(Feb.6,2012).
Ngayon kase malalaman kung pasado ako sa course na inexam ko sa La Salle-kaso parang di ko malalaman ngayon kase, nagfade daw yung ballpen sa application form ko. XD
Ngayon din, may finix kami. Alam ko may reason si God sa nangyari noong mga nakaraang araw hanggang kanina. Sobrang luwag sa pakiramdam na OK na kami :) at alam ko mas magiging strong kami dahil sa nangyari,
Lastly,ngayon din, yung araw na naka isang taon na. Yung nage”star gazing” lang kami ni Abby sa room namin dati.tapos blablabla “PEDICAB KA BA?” XD at kinaen ko yung mga sinabi ko non na “di ako magpoprom date, sa 4th na lang”.
Nakakabadtrip lang kapag naiinsecure ka sa isang tao, gusto mo ikaw lang yung ganon, gusto mo ikaw ganun din katulad sa kanya. Ugh That’s one of the effic’ feeling. (‘A`)
Pero, mali hindi lang naman pang negatibong bagay ang gamit ng pagiging insekyora. It’s a big no no. Learn to motivate yourself to those things na nakakapagpainsecure sayo.
Pray, pray and pray inspire and motivate. <3
Secret recipe of life.