Today, after school, was the day it happened.
I’ve been waiting patiently for this moment for quite some time now.
I’ve sat in the foyer just watching him for about an hour, thinking of the best way of confessing to Chay.
I then told myself to sit near him, and that I did.
He scooted closer, but of course I lost my confidence (and his friend followed). At that moment I felt like I had lost my last opportunity.
But he walks away towards my friends (whom im more comfortable with), I jump up with confidence and run to him.
I softly say, “Hey Chay, can we talk? Like you wanna walk around with me?”
“Yea, why not?” He smiled. So we walk through the hallways and there were so many people around (not the best place to have a private conversation btw) but we ended up walking outside and we slowly comes to a stop and cautiously, I said these exact words “Okay so this is really hard for me to admit but I like you, like really like you and I just thought that you had the right to know” as i say these words.. I look away because im afraid of what he has to say in response and I feel myself about to cry so i force a smile on my face to hide my emotions. But I feel a little relieved when he turned to me and said “Okay Well, I kind of like you too but.. im not ready to ask for anything right now” I look at him and I say “I know, I had a feeling but I just thought that I should tell you.” He replied “Its okay, im glad you told me” I felt like breaking down. But I couldnt, not in front of him.
He turns to hug me and it was almost like the greatest hug I’ve ever experienced.
I needed reassurance and while were hugging I ask “so Its okay to like you right?” He laughs and says “yes, of course.” We walk eachother back inside and I sit with my friends and he sits with his.
Thats pretty much how my day ended.

Although I should feel thankful that At least now I know and even though I expected him not to be ready, it still kind of hurt. But overall I am thankful.

Someone please tell me how should I feel?

February 6,2013

Ngayong araw, may iniintay ako,may ififix, at may naalala(Feb.6,2012).

Ngayon kase malalaman kung pasado ako sa course na inexam ko sa La Salle-kaso parang di ko malalaman ngayon kase, nagfade daw yung ballpen sa application form ko. XD

Ngayon din, may finix kami. Alam ko may reason si God sa nangyari noong mga nakaraang araw hanggang kanina. Sobrang luwag sa pakiramdam na OK na kami :) at alam ko mas magiging strong kami dahil sa nangyari,

Lastly,ngayon din, yung araw na naka isang taon na. Yung nage”star gazing” lang kami ni Abby sa room namin dati.tapos blablabla “PEDICAB KA BA?” XD at kinaen ko yung mga sinabi ko non na “di ako magpoprom date, sa 4th na lang”.