At what point did our conversations cease
to be conversations and start to be the two
of us mechanically attempting to pass the
Turing test and convince the other of our
humanity and how did we never notice that we
were both calling from the same playbook this whole time
and when did I start seeing you as a means to
an end and not an end in and of yourself and
now that I think of it why did I go into this
believing you were human but I was not?
And I shook and shimmied it with of all my might today.
“‘Cause the world keeps spinning round and round,
and my heart’s keeping time to the speed of sound
I was lost ‘til I heard the drums
then I found my way…”
And you can’t stop me from saying that I had a ball a while ago during my first exposure and performance as college student, as a CASAn. Well, all thanks to MusiCASA, the official musical-related guild for CA students.
Back story: I was chosen for the number so yeah. LOL. Fast forward to the performance. I thought we were set to be singing later in the program. To my surprise, we were scheduled as the opening number to the CATv awards - the culmination for the TV Prod subject in the CA curriculum taken by the third year.
There were only 4 of us who’ll be singing, Ate Bianca, one of the guildheads; Kuya Stephen, a junior member; Milky, my blockmate; and then there’s me.
Being quite frankly enough, I was nervous. I was trying not to let it show, though. ‘Cause it’s hard to get all wobbly, stuttering and inconsistent when you’re on stage. But I think I was successful in applying the skill/learning I acquired in high school: being nervous is okay, but you need not to let it show, just capture the moment and release your inhibitions.
And it was true. Once it’s my part to sing, it almost went along naturally. I didn’t have doubts nor second thoughts. The audience was a different one, though. They weren’t our batchmates, but still, they never failed in cheering Milky and I on.
The rest was a history forever imprinted in my book of memories. I shall not forget this day. The day I showed what I got to a new crowd, the day I knew that I will continue and never give up on singing.
Loaded.
Second week of second semester already was a hell of a lot. Now, as we’re approaching the third week, deadlines are to be met, researches are to be done, readings to be read, tests to be given, eye bags to be accumulated and eyebrows to be burned once again. And it’s just so damn early.
We anticipated our subjects to be quite boring, actually. But who knew that these subjects would slowly lead to our demise. Okay, that’s a hyperbole but academically speaking, I hope we last long enough.
In all of our subjects now in 1CA1, there’s not a single subject that we ain’t got nothing to do. We’re loaded. Damn, yeah. Stress on the way.
But you have to make your way through all the bustle, you know? I think that’s what I have done and what I’m doing. I pledged that 2nd sem would be a new beginning for me so I’ll study fervently.
I hope this attitude towards schoolwork of mine shall last, tho. LOL. Haha. Anyway, here’s a post to update ev’ryone what I’m up to. Haven’t really blogged for a period of time. Real busy.
So, here’s to another busy week. Adios!
Apologies.
I haven’t been active for the whole week, since college start up just this Wednesday and I’m really excited because I am a freshman. I don’t suppose that I will be active in a few more days. I want to pass this step. I want to get serious, even more serious than I was in high school. I’ll be updating little by little and I hope that no one would unfollow me just because I’m not updating often. I don’t have the time. I only have Monday and Friday afternoon, and the whole Saturday.
I apologize for being not active. It’s just this college step is very important to me. I can’t just let it go. I want to graduate with good grades, and I will. But, I will promise you that if I get to connect with the wifi signal in our campus, I will update as possible as I can.
I promise. And I’m sorry.
