I let my stepsister use my phone to take pictures and holy shit her lightning photos are cooler than mine. She’s like 12

I often wonder why I am like this? What made me this way? So afraid of love and all the things that it has to offer. Like getting comfortable in love means letting your guard down and opening yourself up to an unavoidable heartache. Then I remember. Him. It always comes back to him. I find myself defending him to others when they talk about how awful he is, because I was lucky enough to get to know him. Even just for a moment, even just a tiny spark, I got to know him. I was one of the few who penetrated the hard shell exterior and got to know the real person that lurked inside, yet I still had the rug pulled out from under me. He took everything away from me. He took my happiness, he took my innocence, he took my heart, and he left me there to die. Only I didn’t die, I kept on living. I kept living with the presumption that any and all love can pick up and leave at the drop of a glove, without warning and without reason. That everything you work for, no matter how polished and treasured, can still be taken away from you. So up goes my wall of protection, my shell that shelters me from the inevitable heartache soon to come with each and every meaningful kiss. Afraid to let the love in, afraid to be happy. I often wonder why I am like this? What made me this way? It wasn’t him, or what he took away from me, it was who I became after him. Him.
—  Him, © 2015 Sarah Marie Pardy

Throwback Thursday.
Original version posted to my old blog in January 2014!
Singapore February 2015 Part 1 - Chye Seng Huat Hardware

In an alternate universe where I’m a million times more selfish than I already am, I’ll probably skip sharing about this place for the sake of hipster-ity (is there such a word). I’ll be like, NO ONE MUST KNOW THIS. IT IS MINE AND MINE ALONE! *bratty rage*

But we’re not living in that universe, and everyone knows I’m 110% always open to sharing new things to my readers. And one of my latest cafe discoveries in Singapore is Chye Seng Huat Hardware. My boyfriend, being the coffee snob (haha, half-kidding) that he is, often tells me to check it out every time I’m in Singapore. Unfortunately, I’ve never stayed in a hotel in this area, moreso explore the vicinity of Lavender Station. Orchard has always been my comfort zone, so I almost never go anywhere else when I’m there.

Coincidentally, the JRunway team responsible for flying me in Singapore last February, booked me at a hotel which is only about a minute away from the cafe.

So I went everyday. NO REGRETS.

My 3 first words since I was born. (Shokugeki no Souma reference, hello)

The facade of the cafe before opening. Really unimaginable that there’s a cafe here if you didn’t know anything about it beforehand.

Had an iced latte first thing in the morning on my last day. Still dreaming about it until now.

Mine’s and my brother’s. Perfect on a warm Singapore day.

Before heading back to the hotel to get my luggage in time for my flight, I managed to walk in on David shooting for his blog! So I tagged along for like 5 minutes…

…and got another latte. WHAT IS THIS ADDICTION


I whale eat baristas!

The interiors of the cafe.

I wish I had this whole island at home. With award-winning baristas, okay?

Another day, another visit to CSHH. Had to take this OOTD shot of my brother because he was so happy with his Gentleman’s Choice leather NBs. How come these things never come in women’s sizes…

I think my brother got to try some of their food. Ugh, I’ll try the strawberry cream cheese next time.

Right-o. My family’s addiction to coffee most likely started with mom’s morning habits.

Just when you thought they can’t go any hipster.

Hot lattes against their awesome-looking tables. Yes, I’m even gushing about their tables.

My brother got another drink. Someone can’t get enough of this place.

Latte lady.

It’s a hardware life.

Colors I’d love to have in my future home.

Where my brother and I splurged on different kinds of coffee beans. It’s right beside the cafe!

They also sold coffee equipment and coffee books.

On the second floor…

…is another store! Sadly, it was still closed at 9AM. The goodies inside reminded me a lot of the stores in Haji Lane.

Chye Seng Huat Hardware is at 160 Tyrwhitt Road, a 15 minute walk from Lavender Station. Hopefully I can get to visit again next week, when my whole family visits my brother (who’s been staying in Singapore since October last year)!