The sunlight bathed my skin as I lay on my side. I yawned, managed to fully open both eyes. When I open them, I see him slowly opening his eyes, like a baby opening its eyes for the first time. A smile slides across his face, his beautiful blue eyes staring back at me and whispered “You look beautiful in the morning” I’m so engulfed in my passion for him, that I don’t even realise his lips moving.



anonymous said:

there's this post about how Grace's video content has been getting worse and has been getting quite a number of notes, I'm not sure if you have seen it but anyway, you are one of the most rational people in the fandom, so I was just wondering, what are your thoughts on Grace's videos? Do you feel that they have been getting worse?

Hi! Thank you for asking and for the vote of confidence ;) 

Here is what I think.

I’ve been watching Grace’s videos for 4 years now and to be honest, I don’t think there is anything wrong with them. I enjoy them just as much as I used to. I think they are different in content and quality, though.

Thing is, people change. Not in Earth-shaking ways, but people do change. Be it life experiences, past or current relationships, hardships, work… People go through a myriad of changes that alter the way they behave, the way they think, the way they create.

Grace has been an extremely consistant content creator for a long time, and I’ve seen some criticism that has been aimed at her, and I think it’s not entirely fair. 

She did set up the 5 days schedule for herself at the beginning of It’s Grace. She put out stuff that was extremely similar in quality content than what she used to post. 

I feel like (and this is my personal point of view) that people are bitter about a few things: 

- The fact that Grace is expanding into diffferent territories, exploring new business opportunities. For a stupid reason, I think people feel entitled to Grace’s success. Of course her subscribers are a huge part of what she built but the thing is: she built it herself. We only chose to go on this adventure with her. Also, it is a business. I don’t know if many people in the fandom are actually adults, but I am Grace’s age. I work for a living, I need to pay for food, for rent, for insurance, for phone, for internet, for gas, for medical shit. People around here, and I’m not taking a shit at anybody, just stating an obvious truth, are mostly teenagers.

I think 70% of the Trinity fandom is made up of teenagers. They are not old enough to know about financial stability, business, taxes, etc. and it’s normal. They only see the immediate reward of a new video, and don’t understand that the way America’s system is set up, you’ve got to work your ass off to build personal financial assets. Grace is an adult, and has to work for anything she owns.

The new house? People don’t fuckin realize it’s not as easy financially-wise and that’s she’s actually protecting her assets by investing in something tangible for when she’ll retire in 50 years. Also, loans, mortgage, guarantors… Being an entertainer is now easy because it’s liberal status, financial and tax wise (sorry, it’s boring but it’s my job yay). you have shit tons of taxes, and no monthly/weekly steady income. She might have contracts, but it’s still not as financially sound as employee in a firm. 

Grace has been providing us with free entertainment for ages and I’m a firm believer that if you really don’t feel like it entertains you as much as it used to, you really should stop following her.

I also think unsuscribing speaks a lot louder than just venting or ranting on the internet and tagging her in posts bordering on rude. Stating your opinion is fine, though. But if you feel like the opinion you’re stating is now a truth regarding your feelings about her content, you should just stop following her.

- Camp Takota has been such a huge thing in the Trinity fandom and in Grace’s fandom that it obviously left a hole. We had exciting dailies, premieres, etc etc etc. Many people haven’t moved on. I’m not saying we should move one because Camp Takota will always be there, but some people still live in that bubble, in that timespan, and haven’t moved on.

- Grace’s new posting schedule threw off a lot of people. It’s also a part of the changes I was talking about. 

- Grace’s personal life. Not getting into ship wars here, because shipping is for fun and if you ship Grace with anybody, it’s all fuckin peachy, but as evidenced by the gross and rude confessions blog, people are upset about her broadcasting how sincerely happy (I think) she looks.

My answer to your question, in the end is the following: I do think her videos have changed. I also think she has changed. You can’t expect her not to. The content she’s posting, I think, is more honest and real than what she used to post. It feels less gimmicky, and I, for one, am happy about it all. 

I also want to remind people who may be disappointed that in the past couple of months, when quality “declined”, she kept this 5 days schedule, wrote a book, went overseas with the girls for No Filter shows, shot Hey Usa, shot a pilot for E!, shot podcasts videos and many other #secretprojects that drove us mad.

Some people, in this fandom, seem unable to “”“let her go”“” and want to confine her to YT. They just can’t seem to be happy with all the things she does.

I think it’s fantastic. I wish more people knew about Grace, I wish the whoIe world knew about Grace, I wish YT was not the only platform on which she performs. I just wish people realize she’s a woman with formidable work ethic and that she’s one of the most consistent content creator. 90% of her lastest stuff (which people criticize) is still better than 90% of many people’s usual stuff. 

I’m glad young people have someone like her to look up to, because young people need reminders that work is not all drama and exhaustion. Work is also about giving yourself a chance, it’s about reaching for the stars. And hard work always pays off in the end.

The key is not over idolizing Grace. She is a human, she has rough moments like we all do, and if she can make us laugh, even for a couple of minutes with what she posts, I’ll follow her on any medium and will buy all of her shit, because she’s a peach who deserves all the success. I’ve changed “with” her, my life has changed a lot since I’ve started watching, and I feel like some people just want to freeze time. It’s just not possible. 

there you go, Anon, feel free to keep the conversation going


Depression does not always mean
Beautiful girls shattering at the wrists
A glorified, heroic battle for your sanity
Or mothers that never got the chance to say good-bye

Sometimes depression means
Not getting out of bed for three days
Because your feet refuse to believe
That they will not shatter upon impact with the floor

Sometimes depression means 
That summoning the willpower 
To go downstairs and do the laundry
Is the most impressive thing you accomplish that week

Sometimes depression means
Lying on the floor staring at the ceiling for hours
Because you cannot convince your body 
That it is capable of movement

Sometimes depression means
Not being able to write for weeks 
Because the only words you have to offer the world
Are trapped and drowning and I swear to God I’m trying

Sometimes depression means 
That every single bone in your body aches 
But you have to keep going through the motions
Because you are not allowed to call in to work depressed

Sometimes depression means
Ignoring every phone call for an entire month
Because yes, they have the right number
But you’re not the person they’re looking for, not anymore


by “Alexandra” Tilton, NH {Teen Ink: November 2013 Issue} 

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1- Name
2- Url
3- Blog title
4- Crush
5- Favourite color
6- Favourite band
7- Favourite number
8- Favourite drink
9- Write something in all caps ” I wrote quote in Arabic”
اخر من كتب ؟ ادري
اتوقع ماتمشي خطة اني اسب خطي عشان تمدحونه هههههه ماعلينا
كلن اختاروه لذا لا احد ^^

Gym time!

I’m not going to go into details about weight loss and numbers on here as it would be insensitive to certain followers..but this past month I’ve made a few lifestyle changes and I feel great in myself. 💪 here’s to hoping I keep it up!

(Hello #mcbusted tee 😉)

jahayraabanto said:

You're such a beautiful human being. I was looking for relatable quotes and yours are just amazing. Keep writing because I'll for sure buy your (future) book :D Btw, do you have Twitter?

Oh, thank you. I can feel some pressure now.
Yes, I have Twitter. Click here.
Pardon me for my number of tweets and followers.
It is just created recently. :)

I guess it's October now?: An update
  • On the 26th day, the London gods said, “Let there be wifi!” Hallelujah, the guy actually showed up and it took him all of 4 minutes to set us up. One giant step for mankind (or Matt and Steph, at least).
  • Our weekend trip to Rome was Matt’s first time in Italy and of course, he fell in love. That makes it official: Italy is where we want to get married! 4 months after getting engaged, we reached out to our first wedding-related vendors - and have already gotten responses back! I’m actually really, really excited about the whole thing so please let me have this girly moment.
  • For those who were curious about/baffled by the “special calculator" from Barclays to update the phone number on record, here it is: 


  • Parents and Jackie leave for Europe tomorrow! Only a week and a half until the whole family is reunited! They’re bringing peanut butter! And ranch dressing! And my floss stick! 
  • I don’t really feel like I’m living in a foreign country anymore. Except when I need service repairs. Or want to buy ham in bulk. 

A medley of my favourite Brendan pictures to celebrate another follower milestone, this is just madness. I never thought I would get 1 follower let alone the number I have just reached. The next milestone is a biggie and to reach that would be incredible but this is just amazing.

Thanks to everyone who follows, you rock :)

anonymous said:

I'm Russian. I'm white. We don't give flowers in even numbers, give double cheek kisses, eat borscht, put rugs on our walls (represents wealth), do ice swims and banya, wear tapochka in house; we don't whistle indoors, nor do we smile when we make eye contact with strangers. We bring gifts when invited to peoples' homes and eat pelmeni;the majority of us don't celebrate Christmas, we celebrate New Years. I could write longer list if Tumblr allowed but since I'm white, do I still have no culture?

Apparently, to racismrepellant and other dumbasses on here you don’t.

Handwriting Challenge☆
Tagged by: banm-a ❤️

1- Name

2- Url

3- Blog title

4- Crush // for me *maybe Zayn*

5- Favourite color

6- Favourite band

7- Favourite number

8- Favourite drink

9- Write something in all caps ” I wrote quote in Arabic”

10- People I’m tagging
1yuutan alloti amyy1411 buthena gedaf121 shadsama lamosha15 lama-m1 leena70 ..
طبعاً استخدمت يدي اليمنى لأن اليسرى خطها حدث ولا حرج{اجل اليمين شو ض١..
المهم لا تدققوا في التفاصيل..^^
+اريقاتو بسوم تشان ..❤️

Scottish National Party membership reached 75,000 today, tripling in size since the referendum and becoming the United kingdom’s 3rd largest party. 75,000 members in a country of 5.3 million - compare that with the UK-wide Conservative Party (2nd largest UK party) and their 134,000 paying members in a country of 64.1 million.

Scottish Greens on last check last week had 6000 members, tripling in size also since the referendum. It is very likely that number is somewhere over 7500 at the time of writing this.

The Scottish Socialist Party membership on last check last week had 2100 members since the referendum and this is likely to have risen above the 3000 mark since.

Scottish Labour do not release their membership figures but based on publicly available financial records, demographics, pricing schemes and guess work, they are estimated to have around 6000 paying members.

Weekly conversations.

"Hey Dad, how are you feeling today?"
“Who’s this?”
“It’s Tamara!”
“It’s Tamara, Dad. Your daughter?”
“Oh.. Oh, okay..”
“Just try and remember Dad, I know you can do it!

*silence for about a minute*

"Nah, you’ve got the wrong number mate."

Every fucking day I hope to god that I’m getting the Dad that remembers me, not the one who is caught in a psychotic episode.