this post is unrelated to weight loss, its just i kinda been thinking about it a little recently and i use this blog to just write what i’m thinking sometimes, sorry! more weight loss stuff coming this week!
when i was in primary school all i used to think about was girls. i never ever let anyone know or see it because at that age you are supposed to hate girls but it’s literally all i thought about. i could name a fair few girls that i had crushes on, not full names but definitely first names and i can still picture them to this day. every day i would go to school and do my work but all i would think about was girls and how i thought that they were the most amazing thing.
in primary school especially i was tall, goofy and a mommy’s boy. i was smart but i would sometimes get into trouble mainly because i was trying to impress girls by getting into fights stuff like that, but it never worked. i was always the nice boy, everyone liked me but that was it, it never went any further than that, and i know its so silly and funny to think about now but as a 6-7 year old kid its all i cared about ha if a certain girl liked me how i liked her.
the most vivid memory i have of primary school other than that one time i lost my beyblade in year 5 was in probably year 4 or 5 i had this crush on this girl, i think her name was Yasminka, i cant remember how to spell it. she was probably the prettiest girl in school and she used to do these dances at assembly, i remember she did one to Cruella Deville that year in front of the whole school and i sat in the front row with the biggest grin on my mug the whole time. i think just after that happened i went home one night and i made her this card in the shape of a Labrador, i dont know why, i dont think it was because she had one or liked them or even had a dog, i think it was just at the time i had just learnt how to draw them really good and i thought it looked cool, i dunno. anyway i made her this really detailed card in the shape of a dog and the next day i think i just left it on her desk and it said something like i really like you or something. the next thing i remember is me hiding in the boys toilets crying as she is telling me with her friends she doesnt like me that way and that she was sorry. thats probably my most vivid memory of primary school and i love it now i think its the funniest thing and every time i think about it it makes me happy haha
i used to get really bummed then because all these pretty girls were hanging around the boys who were the fastest runners and played footy, but i remember when i was 7-8 years old i used to tell myself that one day i would just get better looking, like the universe would just reward me for being polite and nice and just make me good looking when i was older. then i would be the one with the pretty girls talking to me. it was the dumbest thought ever i know but i was young and stupid.
if the young me saw the girls that are or have been in my life up until this point, i dont think that he would believe me ha. i just feel pretty blessed about who i have around me right now.