I feel things deeply, but I get more angry, more frustrated, more protective, more sad, more defensive – more excited, more joyful, more proud, more giddy for you than I ever will for me.
When I hug you, I will wrap both my arms around and I will squeeze you. And occasionally (if you’re a girl), I will either kiss your cheek or your head.
I see you. The quiet one in the room, simply observing. I notice you.
I will be the first to point out how beautiful you are, and when I do, I am not simply referring to your appearance, but your soul.
If you ever come over, be prepared for a lot of eye contact and a lot of tea to be served because you just stepped into a heart-to-heart zone, my friend.
I could listen to you talk about your life for hours and appreciate every. single. detail. I genuinely want to know what makes you you.
I get filled with joy being able to rejoice in the big and small victories of your life and to share the burden of the hard times. Truly.
The outside world to me is soul-filling and love-inducing. But so is laying on the floor on my back, with my legs up on the couch, my hair sprawled out listening to Bon Iver or Ben Howard or The Civil Wars. Because then I just use my imagination.
Nothing annihilates my joy quicker than injustice. The only thing I have ever associated with the word hate.
I like to make sure everyone feels important. Because they are. But even the inanimate. My whole bridal party were Maids of Honor. There were six of them. Oh, there’s four different colors of m&m’s in this bag, I’ll eat one of each color simultaneously so no one feels left out.
If you come to me in tears, be ready to accept a really, really long hug. Basically until you stop crying. However long that may take.
When I am around a lot of you at once, my favorite thing to do is look around and observe individually as you’re talking or laughing or smiling or just listening to someone else speak. It makes me unfathomably thankful. Sometimes I get caught and we just share a knowing smile and it’s my favorite.
When you ask me for my opinion on something, I process things in my head before I begin to speak and analyze because I see so many sides to everything – be patient with me.
I have a big smile when I am overjoyed that makes one side of my nose crinkle and gives me major lazy eye and looks horrible in photos, but I just can’t control it when I’m that happy.
I’m always the smallest one in the group, standing at a whopping 5’0”, but I am always the mama bear. I refuse to let others hurt or bully those in my life. And I am the one who looks around the group every five seconds to make sure we’re all still there.
When I concentrate intently, I curl both my upper and lower lip into my teeth and don’t even realize until I release it.
I blush easily and always feel it which makes me blush even more because then I know it’s noticeable. And if someone points it out, forget it.
I cry on a weekly basis but that is because I’m an emotional person and my body uses my tears to express my emotions about things I care about. Whether it is joy, sadness, frustration, anger.
I am still learning everyday that I have a voice and sometimes it is shaky. But that it is okay as long as I am speaking up.
Nothing brings me greater joy than taking care of my husband and thinking about when the time comes to take care of our future family.
When I haven’t seen you in a long time and I love you, I will run to you and hug you.
When I am really hungry and food sits before me, I will do a little happy dance in my seat before I pray and dig in.
I cry at weddings, even the ones in movies and television.
I am normally quick to forgive and do my best to understand others, even if it means being hurt repeatedly.
My laugh doesn’t match my voice. I’m soft-spoken, but my laugh is loud and you can hear it across the room, maybe across the globe. But that’s when you know I’m happy.
I get giddy if you are giddy. Even if I don’t know what you’re giddy about yet. I will share in your giddiness.
I look to my God for strength and peace and guidance, and while I struggle every day, I know I stand here today solely because of Him.