Let me say something. As someone who has been suicidal, and has attempted, these feelings will pass.
They interviewed people who survived jumping from the Golden Gate Bridge and every single one said once they jumped, and it was too late to turn back, they realized that there was nothing on life they couldn’t change, except for the decision they just made.
Life with mental illness isn’t easy, but it can still be good. Maybe you need to twerk your medicine. Maybe you need someone to talk to, but please don’t make a permanent decision based on a temporary feeling. You are more than welcome to message me anytime. I’ll even give you my phone number and you can text me if you need to. I don’t even know who you are and I CARE about your life and your well being.