Before Jarrod I didn’t date often and when I did I never really invested myself in the other person. When Jarrod came along, straight away I knew I had to be with him and would do anything in my power to do so, and so I did. I booked flights and then counted down the days. Jarrod and I would spend at least 5 hours on the phone talking every day, without fail. When I wasn’t on the phone to him I was texting him and when I wasn’t texting him I was thinking about him. I have never been obsessed with someone, but I am with him. As much as I adored him some of myself knew how I had to be realistic about my feelings, the biggest fear of meeting him and there being no spark. This day last week I met him in person and it literally was one of the best days of my life. It came as no shock how everything felt so natural and normal, as if we had been around each other for years. I can’t wait to look back in a year’s time and see what we have achieved. Jarrod is the one I am meant to be with, he’s my one and only. I love you Jarrod

If someone had told me a month ago that I would be spending days with my soul mate, I would have laughed. He feeds me chips, raps to me, shops with me all day without whinging, straightens my hair when I can’t get those annoying bits at the back, repeats Aziz stand up with me, calls me beautiful all the time and so much more. I love him more than steamed pork dumplings ❤

Last night I shared a shower with you, I pretty much was doing karaoke and bothering you with water.

I fall in love with you every day. I always discover something about you that makes my heart absolutely melt.

Yesterday I fell in love with you over again because of the way you smiled at me when we were sitting in the front yard with your family, just looking over and seeing that big grin of yours, I like that you kiss me in front of your family- I really do.

Today it might have been that you’re cleaning the bathroom and you probably think I’m cleaning the rest of the bed room, but I’m really just sitting here on my phone blogging about how much I adore you.

This week you went and grabbed groceries while I was at work. Both times you noticed I was out of important things I needed (face wash and Nutella). I hadn’t even mentioned I needed to buy these. You’re just so thoughtful and sweet and I want to be in love with to for the rest of my life.

I love you, I’m going to start cleaning now.

Sometimes really simple things such as purchasing toilet paper reminds me of what we have. I would like to think that even if I hadn’t met you the way I did, that the universe would have made sure that we found one another. I have never been myself, in the way I can be around you. It terrifies me that one day I’ll lose you. I won’t ever be ready, nothing could prepare me for that.

You have always accepted me. When you meet me at the bus stop and we are walking home, I’m being a major sook about how miserable my day was, and you just listen and string along the most perfect sentences. You understand my anxiety and stress, you understand my fears and illness, you understand that I struggle with the truth and you without a doubt, understand that I am so very clingy.

I could never get sick of you, ever. I just want to be around you all the time. I want to create life with you because I believe it would be the greatest thing I ever accomplished.

I’m so in love with you.

It’s Saturday morning so as I enjoy my ice coffee on my train ride to work, I see families in the suburbs as I quickly pass. Long enough to see a family taking their dog for a walk, packing the car for soccer and young boy on a few seats across from me is on his way to karate with his mum.

As if I didn’t have enough to think about, the thought of becoming a parent consumes me. I can’t help it, I fell in love, dealt (dealing with) a terrible and awful event of someone I truly adored being taken too soon and now all I want is to create life with the person who changed mine.

It’s everything, the way he brings me my dinner- complete with a glass of cordial and then packs the left overs for me so I can have it as lunch the following day, his absolutely adorable voice when he talks to BB- seriously! Getting the train from the suburbs all the way into the city (when I do the late shift) to walk with me from my store and get the train home with me because he knows how anxious it makes me, even if that means saying no to a shift, deciding he was going to turn some raps into lullabies for our future child. The list goes on.

But for now, there is no babies. Just 2 nights left in the house where some wonderful and also tragic things have occurred. Moving out is such a bittersweet feeling.


Everything from your voice to your smile, from your scent to your touch, from your kisses to the way you look after me. I adore every gesture, compliment and word you give me. Nothing goes un-noticed and nothing will ever be forgotten. My one and only. I love you so much.

See you in 12 days

I got surprised with some beautiful flowers tonight. 2 years ago I met the dude of my dreams. A lot has changed since then- but my love, admiration, respect and dedication has never been questioned. Without a doubt @jj__wolf is my favourite human. So YAY for us for surviving long distance, living together and everything else we have dealt with. So much love to you 💖 ps we don’t have any vases, just an abnormal about of teapots.

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Known you long, but the second I was with you I knew I wanted to be with you for the rest of my life. Before I met you I wanted to and I think I knew, but having you in front of me just confirmed it. You have given me a love I have never had before, a life I never thought possible and happiness that I’ll never stop feeling.

You have been so paitent with me, about everything. I could never thank you enough because it means so much to me that you care enough.

I enjoy everything you offer, your comedy, tenderness, seduction, charm and confidence. You fucking know I adore you. I can’t help it. I fell in love with you as soon as I spoke to you, I’m glad I did.

This distance is difficult, but you make it easier. Constantly in contact with you, telling you everything, the way you send those cute messages out of no where, the phone calls in the morning, at lunch time, when I get home and the amazing phone calls before bed. I’m addicted to you, making you happy and proud. Every day I wake up counting down the days until I will be with you again and falling more in love with you. I can’t wait until the only distance we battle is when you go outside for a smoke.

I love you, I’ll happily spend my life with you. You are my everything and complete me. Thank you, Jarrod.