There are so many inspirational and uplifting videos, poems, art, etc. about the depressed kids who get no attention. We always talk about the kids who are ignored, the kids who try to get attention, etc. Well, what about the kids who do get attention, but still find themselves unhappy? What about the kids with a supportive family, friends, good grades, relationships, etc. who still find themselves sad? These kids tell themselves to get over it, too. These kids are filled with regret, too.
I happen to be one of these kids. I’m the kid who has friends. I’m the kid with a long lasting relationship. I’m the kid with a supportive family. I’m the kid who has several people crushing on them. I’m the kid with good grades. I’m the kid who is extremely privileged. However, I still find myself completely miserable. I have so many people asking me to hang out, yet I involuntarily make up excuses and stay in bed. I have so many people waiting for me at school, yet I still feel too sick to go every morning. I have so many supportive family members, yet I still have panic attacks over the holidays. I have always had good grades, yet I still find myself moping around about them.
Don’t get me wrong, I have had a good share of hard times. My dad was never around and he eventually turned to drugs instead of me, I was bullied up until junior high, my step dad physically and verbally abused me, etc. However, if I think about it, my life is not that bad. It could be so much worse! I’m no longer bullied, I have plenty of friends, I have a great boyfriend, and my family is still here for me. I know people who have nothing and they’re still happier than me. I’m depressed, and I’m also on Tumblr. I naturally turn towards inspirational posts. However, all I seem to find are posts about the kids who are ignored. Then I’m just left wondering, “What the hell is wrong with me?” I’m filled with guilt and self hate. I’m filled with sadness and madness towards my ‘irrelevant’ depression.
So I’m making this post for the kids who have people, have money, have an easy going life, and they still feel like shit. This one’s for the kids who aren’t alone but still feel completely ignored. This one’s for the kids who don’t go to the parties they’re invited to because they feel alone in crowded rooms. This one’s for the kids with cute relationships who still don’t feel loved or cared about. This one’s for the kids who get told, “I love you,” daily but still feel chastised. This one’s for the kids who have so many people thinking they’re perfect but they still feel insecure.
You are not over dramatic, your problems matter, and you deserve to be heard.