- I always want you when I’m coming down -

Oliver’s in Granger Market, Newcastle

Black out


Oh my god if you asked me to go on a women’s retreat with 15 women I’d never met a year ago I would have been like fuck no women scare me too much I don’t trust them. This weekend retreat in Vermont with women in program is fucking INCREDIBLE. My heart is breaking open with so many realizations I’m getting from the stories these women are sharing. I found hope in that I will find a man who helps me grow as I so desperately try to help them grow. I am so incredibly lucky to have met these people and to have the opportunity to once again trust, lean on and receive honest help from other women. I now understand the necessity in my recovery to have an arsenal of women who will hold up the mirror on me and on things that aren’t working in my life that I need to look at. One of which is my relationship with men and my tendencies for codependency or getting into and staying in an abusive relationship. Anyways, another layer of the onion has been peeled this weekend, and though emotionally hungover, I am eternally grateful.

Raspberry Nutella Brownie from Pet Lamb, Granger Market, Newcastle

Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.