Tagged by: muzikmaster


Rule 1: Always post the rules.

Rule 2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked, and write 11 new ones.

Rule 3: Tag 10 people and link them to the post.

Rule 4: Actually tell them you tagged them.

Tagging: (I wanted to tag more people but I can only tag 10, sorry :/)

1. stinawilson

2. lethemusicdotherest

3. thislifeofmusic

4. ash74716-

5. cynthiashaddix21

6. cealaigh-catastrophe

7. jerseybj

8. papa-roacher-187

9. blessthecourtney

10. sugarboo13

My questions:

1. What’s your Zodiac sign?
Leo (like Jacoby Shaddix haha :D *ok I shut up*)

2. What kind of music do you listen to?
Hard question, but mostly rock, and metal. I’m not a purist, though, and I listen to various bands/artists. Most of the times I don’t even actually know their genre(s) but that’s not really important :’)

3. What is something that you think you cannot live without?
Papa Roach, music, reading, writing, and running. (Yes that’s a lot of things but whateverrr)
If I have to quote only one thing, I’d say: passion. I need to be passionate about something, to believe in sth that makes me feel alive, that helps me to get through monotony (and through my own thoughts) to actually live. That’s it for this answer xD

4. Inside or outside?
It depends of the mood I’m in.

5. Favorite color?
Blue, violet, and black.

6. Do you enjoy shopping or no? (Any kind of shopping, clothing, grocery, etc.)
Not really, except when I order from internet, but then there’s shipping cost :c

7. Do you play an musical instrument?
I play guitar, but I haven’t played it since a long time. But I should get back into it.

8. Dream job?
I don’t know. A job that would give me the opportunity to travel, but not too much if I have a family, and speak English. I’d like to become a conference interpreter, and that’s a job that meets these criteria (more or less), but it’s not really my “dream” job.. The dream would be not to work at all haha                                                                         

9. Can you think of something that you are good at?
… Writing, I guess.
And procrastinate, I’m really good at procrastination -_-

10. Considering getting a tattoo? Thoughts on this?
Absolutely, I already have several ideas but I’d rather wait to be totally sure about my tattoos and their locations. I feel like tattoos became commonplace, and it’s kinda sad but great at the same time (if you know what I mean xD).

11. Do you smoke? (Tobacco, etc.)
Nope, except if someone gives me a cigarette or something else – which happens pretty rarely, but I don’t mind at all, I’m not a smoker.

New questions:

1. Favorite band? If not, what’s your fav TV show?

2. What does your URL mean? (basic question I know ^^)

3. What’s the thing that you hate the most at school/your work?

4. Would you rather play in a movie or in a drama?

5. Why did you subscribe to tumblr and/or what do you like the most about this website?

6. Do you like your handwriting?

7. Have you ever been in love?

8. Instagram or facebook?

9. What was the last movie that you saw at the cinema?

10. What book are you currently reading?

11. Have you ever cried of happiness? What was the reason?

February 15, 2014

Well I’m tired of acting like everything is fine, tired of writing happy emoticons everywhere, :) :D ^^ ;) when all I wanna do is to curl up into a ball and sleep for a whole month, tired of smiling laughing acting happy acting normal, tired of saying the same things over and over, “hey how are you today?” “fine, what about you, yeah sure the weather sucks but at least it’s the weekend haha”, tired of avoiding the homework I have to do, tired of doing useless activities to block out the thoughts, tired of putting on a nice smiling face to please people, tired of being angry at my friends for no reason, tired of holding back my tears, tired of hiding the proofs of my stupid despair in my room, all the objects that I hope nobody will find and all the things I wrote at 2am, tired of staring at the walls during the night until I’m too exhausted to keep my eyes open, tired of breaking down every time I listen to certain songs, tired of needing my favorite band to feel okay, or just to actually feel something. I wish the emptiness were filled, I wish the numbness faded away, I wish I were strong enough to throw it all away.

Tired of wanting to destroy everything, tired of being weak, tired of hating myself. Scared of the things that haunt my mind all the time.

So when you ask if I’m alright and I reply that “yeah, I’m just tired”, it’s not a lie.