You know I will read any Bellarke trash that you write. #20! (still waiting on the Star Wars AU btw ;))
[This hurts me! I’ve drabbled some of the Star Wars AU, and it’s garbage already. You’re going to love it.]
bellarke + you need to wake up because I can’t do this without you after mount weather, clarke doesn’t leave but falls into illness. when she slips into a coma, bellamy reaches his breaking point
He says it, and there’s no sideways glance in response, no small smile, no short puff of breath out her nose to signify that Clarke’s actually laughing, that look she gets when he makes her smile and she’s surprised he could. Bellamy Blake, who would have thought?
Instead, she sleeps. Her skin is pale except for where it blossoms black and blue around her closed eyes, some splotches of dried up blood on her cracked lips and on her fingertips. She drags slow breaths in and out, so steady that it’s maddening, but Bellamy tunes it out when he sits at the corner of her cot in Camp Jaha’s makeshift med room.
“You can talk to her. It might help,” Abby had said in slight disdain, but mostly interest, when Bellamy started making ridiculous excuses to come in and out of the med room, looking for something he’d dropped the day before.
And then looking for something he’d dropped while looking for the thing he’d dropped.
For a boy so cocky, so stubborn-hearted, he was fairly transparent.
skipped my weekly meta last week, not because I didn’t have a chance to write
it, but because there was nothing to write about. As much as I love seeing CS
having patrols in the woods at night, there wasn’t much for a meta material
there (who would have thought promotional pictures could ever be so deceiving,
last episode did have his CS moments and although they were not as many as we
hoped, they were significant all the same.
was the first episode that we really saw the implications of Snowing’s secrete
to it’s full. Not only by Emma’s reaction to them, but also in her entire
stability (or I better say instability) during the episode.
is angry more than she ever was in her life, well, not really her entire life,
which is actually the point I’m trying to make here. She wasn’t that angry
since she met her parents and learned the real reason why she was abandoned,
but she was that angry with them before that, when she was a little girl.
Snow and Charming did was truly horrible, but it wasn’t worse than anything
Regina did to her, or Neal, or even August and yet, she found the way to
forgive and even consider as friends all of these people, but she can’t bring
herself (not yet anyways) to forgive her parents. The truth is that I really
hated to see this new plot in which the Charmings did this horrible act and by
what I read on my dash I can see I’m not alone. I felt (and still feel) kinda
mad at the writers for taking the ultimate heroes and turning them into people
who didn’t just do an honest mistake, but were really cruel and twisted about
it. Not letting their own child choosing her way in life, not trusting her to
make the right choices. Not to mention assuming someone else’s baby is beneath theirs.
I kinda feel like after 4 seasons we
have lost our heroes. And if I think that, can you imagine what Emma is going through?
only reason she could ever forgive her parents for abandoning her was because
they did it out of heroism, for the greater good. When she learned the truth
about Lily she not only discovered her parents took away her free will in expense
of someone else’s soul, but that they are not the heroes that she thought they
were. Suddenly, they became what they were to her when she was a child. They became
the parents who abandon her.
think this is the real issue here because Emma found a way to forgive (although
never really forget) the fact that they sent her to our world by herself. She
found a way to look at them as heroes, something we often do as children and
since Emma never had her parents as child, she saw them like that as a grown
woman. But not anymore, now she is seeing weak people who found the cowardly
way out of a situation, something abandon parents will do. I think this is why
Emma took it so strongly, I think deep down she didn’t really forgive them for
abandoning her in the first place. And since their relationship issues are
often swept under the rug, it came back floating once more, just like it did
with Ingrid before she lost her temper on her at the sheriff’s station.
saw at the episode how the situation with Hook and Regina is different for her.
She said it was because they never pretended to be someone else that they were
honest about who they were. Maybe this is the thing, the Charmings never took
responsibility for abandoning Emma, they just spoke on and on about doing it
for the greater good, how they had no choice and that it was a huge sacrifice
for them. Now it kinda feels like every heroic act they ever did (including
this one) was to make up for their sin and Emma was the one to pay the price.
agree with what Emma said to Hook and Regina about them not being honest. For
me (and as we already saw for Emma too) the problem is the lie and not the fact
that people making mistakes.
On a more romantic notion, I
just love love love Hook being Emma’s voice of reason. She needs him more than
ever now and as much as Regina is gonna have a big role in the next episode, I
think no one gets her or get through to her like he does. She could be angry
like hell right now, but she did stop to hear him when he grabbed her hand. He
is her voice of reason and I just love it! He gets her like Regina never will,
like anyone never will.
also loved loved loved how Hook was searching for Henry with the same concern
as the two mothers. He had the same worried expression on his face as they did,
he is becoming a real father figure for him.
all thing with her parents just took Emma out of stability as I was saying. We
saw the implications of that with what happened with Cruella. I have to say
that I didn’t care much for what I saw there. Not because of Emma’s act. I’m
not judging her behavior on that cliff as others did, defending your own child equals
self-defense for me (or is even more justified) and she couldn’t have known
Cruella was bluffing. Yes, she could have just push her to the side, or make
her hands burn like she did with Zelena when she threaten Henry in 3x19, but as
I was saying Emma was unstable and she acted with an impulse, I can’t really
judge her for that.
I did say I didn’t like it all the same. I didn’t like her reaction after it
because that was the thing that wasn’t “Emma like” for me. I didn’t
care for that look she had at the end, basically because I wasn’t buying it. It
all seemed just too rushed (from the writing point of view). I can understand
why what the Charmings did left her out of balance, I just find it hard to
believe Emma would react that way after taking other person’s life, especially
when she never done it before. But, it
was what it was for the sake of the plot. I personally would have much rather
see the switching hearts theory I had a week ago.
have to add something on a last side note here. Jen is a wonderful actress! So
wonderful that there was really no need to make her look like after an allergy attack
in order to look “darker”. IDK, I just found it a little too much.
Was the red eyeliner under the eyes really necessary? Was not putting make up
on her at all and make her look a little sick was the way to go? I believe it
wasn’t, simply because they have this amazing talented actress who can convince
the viewers of her emotional state without “addons”.
Next week we will have the CS goodbye scene, which I guess is all we gonna get until the reunion hug an episode later. I really wish we could see more CS moments by the end of the season, not only because we miss them and need them for our regular fangirling activities, but also because Emma needs him now more than ever. I wish the writers would get that already!
Guys, I’m super proud of myself rn. During rehearsal we decided to do an understudy run and I’m Mazie la Bird’s understudy (this is Seussical). I’m super afraid to sing in front of people and I don’t think I’m very good but I just sand the songs as good as I could and acted through them and everyone said I did great and that they loved it and were proud of me and I was just so happy after the first song I almost started crying with joy and relief I think I’m just about ready for the actual shows! (for once ahahaha) I’m super happy that I get to do this musical with kineko-fab and I’m thankful to have their support along with the rest of the cast, the director, and a few other people. This was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made c: (and who would have thought that a great decision could be made in the spur of a moment?)
“This is how i play the game. If i take this bottle of water and tell you its made of plastic, and then i tell this other person that its made of wood, and then i hear someone saying ‘Ginamarie said this is made of wood’, then i know who fucking said what.”