There is one important news today… I would like to announce that MY FINAL EXAMS WAS OVER! and that was really made me feels like… alhamdulillah and kind of relief feeling. But it does not truly make me “free.” Because there are some lessons that I have to fix about. Or in the other hands, it called “remedial.” Well, for my school itself, remedial is such an usual thing that every student will get it. Dunno why, because our teachers given difficult questions, maybe? So now, I will always make it enjoyable for me. But it doesn’t mean that I like remedial. NO. I never loved that kind of process.
There are some scores I knew today, and I’d like to grade it from the highest! hehe.
-Bahasa Indonesia : 90
-English : 88
-Japanese : 78
-Chemistry : 73
-Maths : 73
-Religion : 72
-Civic : 64
Really-really-bad-right………………. Moreover the maths. Not to be arrogant, but since I was in senior high school 5 months ago, the worst scores I got only 97. And the scores above just like made me………..SHOCK. I have tried my best but.. okay, maybe I’m lack of exercises. BUT, I really dissapoint to myself because I can not be same like Venussio(Mr.A, I’d tell you about the name later.) So, I am sad. And this was really made me to be “more” again.
That’s why I haven’t told mak for it. Beside it haven’t mixed up with daily scores, I do not wanna hear mak for talking about my mistakes for one week ahead. I knew that I’m wrong. I promise that I will fix and try best in the next semester. So, mak… Please forgive me.
The conlusion is….. I have to be more diligent in 2nd semester. And I truly determined for it.
Anyway, today.. Everything is not really going usual. Beside final exams were over, many of my friends were getting confuse with their bad scores. I’m really feeling bad for them. Um yeah. Actually, today was fasting schedule for me. But, finally.. I aborted and ate food in canteen with my friends. Heheheh.
When exam was go on, the supervisor in my room was really funny. She was “ummi” and she really knew that there were some of us cheating each other. Then, she just talked about religion, opened her laptop, played opick songs and… spent time in angry birds. lol. lol. lol. Ummi was civic’s teacher who will get pension in 2 years ahead. She was old but I as young generation had lose from her in gaming field. Yep, I can not play angry bird. Such embarrassement.
Spoken of embarrassement, today my father was homey from Jakarta and Mak, my lil sist and I were about to pick him home. We used 2 motorcycle and wore homey-clothes. Especially me, who only wore baby-doll and jeans jacket. Everything was run well until my father made decisions to have a dinner in one of new famous restaurant in Sidoarjo. Suddenly, I just….
“What? No, dad. I wore something that I should not wore. I do not wear hijab, I do not wear glasses, I do not wear shoes, I–”
Then my father only said…
“Just be cool.”
Finally, we ate at restaurant without going home to change clothes. But weirdly, I do not feel ashamed. Haha.
Anyway.. Alhamdulillah, I met Venussio this morning in mosque school when I got breaktime from geography exam. Today, he wore his grey sweater and he looked nicely like usual. To be exact, he always seems really great in my eyes. At that time.. He did not call me. He only looked me at a glance, and that was making my heart felt like… DEGDEGDEGDEG!
I miss our mentions, by the way.. Now, he doesn’t really interacts with me. Sometimes he replied my mentions, sometimes didn’t.
Well, I really miss this one..
when will we get along again like conversation above, Venussio? Can’t you just consider me as someone that can make you laugh? Someone that usually apears in your life? Someone that you welcomed?
Dear, Venussio.. I’m still waiting excitedly about what memories that we will share together about. I hope you so. Eventough I know, maybe the ratio between you hope and you don’t is like.. 1 : 9 I never losed my hopes. Cause I know, there is no impossible in this life. Allah always be with me, always hears me and know what the best for me.