Can I just say, how much I love all my followers? So many of you have been around since the beginning of my blog. You stuck around through the awkward Futa phase and through all the porn and gaysex and a shout out to Pinkieappleshy. Because she follows me and reblogs cutesy lotia (I’m sorry I can’t spell) and lite hearted things and yet she still follows me even though I should be a blog she avoids. She comes around and reblogs from me and she makes me happy.

And Accioallthefood………baby girl you make me so happy. You called me out on my hate of Rose and you explained to me why you thought you were right and I fell in love with you a tinsy bit. And I still love you. You were worried about me when I went out of touch to the point that you talk to my best friend, some one you don’t even know.

And V0scillate. Rachel. Lovely lovely Rachel. You follow me and you’re a hipster blog! You know me from school and you don’t say anything about the porn or the sex or the tentacles.

And to all the others, new and old. I love you deeply. I never see you reblogging or liking but you’re still here. And I thank you deeply.

When I was in the hospital for mental health problems, it was the thought of my followers that got me out. And for that I thank you for being here to listen to me whine. You’ve all stayed through the continuous fandom switching… My heart would break if I lost any of you.

And because of this, if anyone wants to talk about being abused or having fears or anything, come talk to me. The world would lose something special if any one of you were to die.

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Dear Evan…

Remember the time you locked yourself in my bathroom with my camera? Yeah, I thought I deleted these too…

Well, I hope you and your new girlfriend are having a lovely time together! :)

Bye now.

Love,

Rachel

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I love me sometimes. You know the drill: Like, Share, Reblog, Follow, Subscribe, etc!

This song is extremely relevant to my life so I find it very necessary to post the lyrics. Deal with it.

A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It’s like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I’m holding you closer than most ‘cause you are my heaven

I don’t wanna waste the weekend
If you don’t love me pretend
A few more hours then it’s time to go

As my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm
It’s too late to cry
Too broken to move on

And still I can’t let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don’t take what you don’t need from me

It’s just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
Its like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I’m holding you closer than most ‘cause you are my heaven

Misplaced trust and old friends
Never counting regrets
By the grace of God I do not rest at all

New England as the leaves change
The last excuse that I’ll claim
I was a boy who loved a women like a little girl

And still I cant let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don’t take what you don’t need from me

It’s just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It’s like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I’m holding you closer than most ‘cause you are my

Heaven doesn’t seem far away anymore
No
No
Heaven doesn’t seem far away

Heaven doesn’t seem far away anymore
No
No
Heaven doesn’t seem far away
Oh
Oh

A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It’s like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I’m holding you closer than most ‘cause you are my heaven
You are my heaven