Yesterday we got to see our child for the very first time! Just when I thought I couldn’t love them ANY MORE! I think my heart is going to explode! I can’t stop staring at their perfect little self!
The ultrasound went really well! We got some photos of our little sweetheart and left with an envelope that will tell us the gender of our baby once we get our family together in the next week or so!
Baby didn’t cooperate so we do have to go back for another one soon… they were balled up and didn’t let us check out their sweet little organs!
Once I got home though, I checked the posted results online, because thats what the doctors here do! I found out they had found a cyst on baby’s brain and that they want to take a look at it again. I can’t even lie to you all, I was devastated. I cried all night and into this morning. This news drove Luke and I so deep into the quiet place of prayer and surrender. I did my research and found out this particular cyst is very loosely linked to different chromosomal disorders including trisomy 18 and down syndrome (YIKES!), BUT that it is most likely absolutely nothing. My mommy heart is just so sore from even seeing the possibilities though.
After speaking with my dad (who is a doctor) and doing more research, I have a lot of peace about everything. To be honest, even if this leads to a chromosomal disorder it will simply mean our lifestyle needs to change, potentially for the better, to accommodate our perfect child, no matter their “disability”!
Sweet baby, you are loved beyond comprehension, and you are giving me just a TASTE of the Lord’s love for His children!
Prayers would be so appreciated during this ** KINDA ** stressful worrisome time. Thank you so much in advance.