Ughhh… I haven’t felt this alone feeling in a long time… I feel… Sad..
I cant sleep, I’m over thinking, i feel so lonely…
I miss having friends to talk to about ocs and, fandom stuff… Making AUs, shipping, and having fun…
I have a FEW ( like 2 that go and message me first to talk, the others only talk if i start the convo, and half the time i get no or little reply )friends that i talk to on skype… But its just random talk… Like a game that came out or about what we did that day.
No one that has ocs that wants to talk to me about oc stuff, or no one in the same fandom that want to talk fandom stuff.
So all i do is try to draw or watch videos, when I’m not working or sleeping….
There is some that want to friend me, but acting overly awkward and/or force their art on me.. As in “ hey look at this random thing i drew, that you don’t know anything about! Did i do good?????????”… And it just makes me nervous… I know people like my art, but shoving something in my face wanting a complement is not how to go about things… If you want me to help you improve by telling you any thing you could be improved in it, then its different, i wouldn’t mind.
The awkward thing, i know people get nervous or are shy, and people think of me as a “senpai”… But I’m like everyone else… Being super formal, like you’re speaking to royalty, is not needed… Tbh it makes me not want to reply. I end up getting nervous.
Idk…. Im just a shy and nervous person… But the ones that make it past that know I’m crazy and weird.