When I was young (17) and just starting to explore my gender identity I made the same foolish mistakes many people do. I was in a rush to stop using an ace bandage to bind and bought a binder from Amazon, a horrible idea. It was a tight fit and not made for someone of my build but instead of returning it I kept wearing it. I wore it for almost a year and rarely ever took it off or loosened it from the tightest setting. I see post of people sharing their stories about binder dangers and such but I didn’t listen.
Over the next year my health slowly failed me. First it was just hard to breath but since I have life long bronchitis I didn’t think much of it. Then my ribs began to hurt but since I was hit by a car almost 3 years ago I didn’t think much of it. It wasn’t till my heart started giving out that I took notice. Ever beat of it hurt and sometimes my chest would light up with pain as my heart fluttered. It was horrible. It got to the point where I thought I was actually dying and I my boyfriend wanted to take me to the hospital. At that point I finally took the bloody thing off but it was to late the damage was done. I can no longer wear a binder. The one I own and wear casually is far too big and does nothing in terms of compression I only wear it as an undershirt and just for the comforting feeling of knowing I’m wearing a binder of sorts but it does nothing to stop my dysphoria. But if I had worn that old binder another week or two i wouldn’t of woken up again.