tosses:six

Saturday Six

1) Feeling lost today.
2) I’m also feeling a profound sense of loss. I really need to talk to someone, a friend, and be comforted. I was with friends last night, and comforted by silly distraction, but I need to cry on a shoulder.
3) Despite all of that I’m very grateful for another wonderful Christmas with my kids. I’m very very lucky that I don’t have the back and forth issues that so many divorced parents do. It has its drawbacks, for sure. And I will never ever understand his not choosing to be with them more. But times like the holidays are much easier for it.
4) I have to travel with the boy next weekend and no plans are in place save a hotel reservation and a registration. Kids, dog, driving partner…ugh. I need to straighten this out today.
5) I look awful. And that has to change. I know it shouldn’t matter, but I think the reality is it does.
6) Lonely.

Soy muy torpe expresándome pero no quiero que malinterpretes mis silencios como indiferencia de mi parte porque no lo es. Soy consciente de la falta de afecto que hay en mis palabras pero simplemente así soy yo.
Ya hacían falta personas como tú en mi vida, de esas que hacen que las cosas se sientan ligeras como si todo valiera la pena. Soy muy torpe expresándome pero quédate esta noche.
—  Diana Reyes Narváez- Segundas Oportunidades
After Tadashi's death
  • Baymax :on a scale of 1 to 10 how would you rate your pain?
  • Me :I was saving my ten. And here it was, the great and terrible ten, slamming me again and again as I lay still and alone in my bed staring at the ceiling, the waves tossing me against the rocks then pulling me back out to sea so they could launch me again into the jagged face of the cliff, leaving me floating faceup on the water, undrowned.