I finally got my results back from the ADD/ADHD assessment and while it’s inconclusive how much is from anxiety and how much is from actually ADD/ADHD, the psychologist says I’m definitely on the less severe end of the spectrum just based on symptoms alone.
And she says my sensory overload issues are really common to ADD/ADHD. I feel so, so much less ‘crazy’ just knowing that. I’m not just some weirdo like I’ve felt for thirty years…there’s a lot of people like me and a lot of them are really cool and it’s not even that big of a deal, it’s just about learning what tools there are for us and how to use them.
I’m. Actually really happy about this? I mean if she’d been like, nah your memory and sensory filters seem fine, it’s totally not attention deficit disorder, then…it wouldn’t have just magically stopped. I’ve been feeling like everyone got an operating manual for their brain but me my entire life. It would still be there, just unnamed and therefore unmanaged in any real way. But when you can name something, you have power over it, and you can find your allies and coping skills with that name.
(I’m still really kinda not thrilled that I might have IBS and/or CFS. Acronyms aren’t Pokémon, gods dammit, I don’t gotta catch ‘em all!)