"And thats all?"
“Yes, that’s all! What do you want more?”
“You were never that type of girl who does things like this.”
“You will never love me back, so why should I waste my life waiting for you?”
“It’s not about that…”
“Yes it is! And you know this too well, Tom. I don’t want to stress you anymore. I get it, you have a girlfriend, you love her, I’m your friend and that’s all. I want to move on, to live my life and stop dreaming at impossible things.”
“But sleeping with random guys, going out mostly every night, don’t shows that you are mature and you want to go on.”
“They love me back, not as you. I need love too, even a dog needs that.”
“I don’t want you to have problems… Just wait for the right guy. Nobody says to do not go out, but please be careful.”
“I never said I don’t believe in true love anymore,. Only that I need time to find it. And I need time to fix my heart and forget you.”
“Don’t be mad at me. You make me feel so guilty…”
“You’re not. I understand you and I’m happy I can still have you as a friend.”
“I’m happy too.”
They hug and after few more minutes she lefts to her own house. Forgetting him would be harder than she ever thought, especially when everything he does, makes she believe that he cares about her more than it should. He treats her like his own propriety, like his little princess and that makes her suffer even more. He should let her go, he should stop being so protective. But still… She wants him, she wants to be around him, she’s sure that no matter how much she goes out or how many boys she meets, this won’t be enough to forget him. For her there is no other guy, except him. But he don’t loves her back and she needs love, love, love more than air. And until she will have him, she needs to love those one who love her back.
At night she prepare her outfit and she calls few friends. She needs to go out again, she needs to get drunk and forget everything. She needs fun, she’s major and she has the right to do everything she wants, no matter if Tom’s agreeing that or not. At least her girls are always up to help her and have fun, so soon they were waiting at the entree of the club.
They found quickly their table and soon the party begun. The guys around them were really cute and the alcohol helps them to feel better. As soon as she is drunk she forgets about Tom and her whole insecurities and feelings. After all let’s fuck the feelings, who needs to listen at what a stupid heart is telling you, when your brain tells to go on and have fun? Maybe she wont find her true love tonight, or maybe the guy who is kissing her right now isn’t that Prince Charming she wants, but who says that you can’t enjoy the ride?
“I like you really much..” The guy whisper to her ear and she laughs.
“You don’t say. How much?” She asks back and she took another glass of vodka.
“If you are coming to my house later, I could show you.”
“Are you ready to love me?”
“Will you love me back?”
“No, but I will try my best.”
She excuses herself after few minutes and she rushes to the bathroom. Is she ready to do this again? Maybe, but until then she needs to fix her makeup.
When she was beautiful again, she goes out, ready to search for that guy again. Only that somebody was waiting for her outside looking really mad.
“Come. Let’s go home.” He said and grab her hand.
“You are not my daddy. I’m big enough to have care of myself.”
“No, I don’t think so. And you will see that I can be your daddy too. I can even stroke your ass. Don’t make me mad.” He smiles and she knew that he is not lying.
“Nothing. Let’s go.” He said and she follows him, like a good girl. He needs to understand one day that this behavior is not helping her to move on. How to meet new guys, if he is always there to protect her?
In just few minutes they arrive to her house and he follows her till her room. Why is he acting like this? And if he would answer to her questions, but no, he is keeping that beautiful mouth fully closed.
“Tom will you ever answer to me? Why are you doing this?” She asked again hoping that this time maybe he will say something.
“Come. Get inside and shut up once!” He said and locked the door behind him.
“Nobody can hear me except you, so I won’t shut up. What do you want? Do you want me to love you endlessly? Why are you jealous, why are you always behind me, protecting me, like a little child? Why don’t you let me go on? Why are you so egoistic?” She asked, but he kept being quiet. Only that now he was moving closer to her, until he gets really close, only at few centimeters away from her.
“What..?” She asked again smiling, seeing the playful smile on his face.
“Go on. Say whatever you want, I like to hear you talking.” He said and hold her into his arms, taking both of her hands into his.
“I would like to hear you talking too.” She said and watch his wild eyes. Is he really doing this?!?
“I have nothing to tell you.” He said calm and walk together with her till the first wall.
“I think you do have a lot of things to tell me…” She said, but he pushes her to the wall and she shut up. He could be a little bit more gently.
“Oh, yeah… I could tell you that I’m very mad about you, that you deserve to be punished, but I will prefer to shut up. How could you ever think that I will let you go?” He said and touch slowly her chin with one his hands.
“You have her… And in fact you never loved me back. You told me clearly that you can’t be my boyfriend, that you are taken. Why to keep dreaming, when my dream is impossible?”
“Nothing is impossible, ever. Dreams are always possible if you keep believing into them.”
“Even me.” He said and kiss her.