everybody, I just want to post up this notice before I go off disappearing
again. First off, I just want to explain why I disappeared in the first place.
Some of you might have noticed it but last week I posted some rather unhappy
things on my blog, and I should delete those btw because you know how I am
about spreading positivity on my blog. I was actually going through a rough
time and I just completely broke down. I spiraled into my own darkness and I
didn’t know how to deal with it. Still don’t know how to deal with it but I’m
of my followers have been very sweet and supporting, sending me PMs with words
of encouragement and anons leaving me asks saying how worried they are about
me. I am very touched and I swear I will answer those personally when I fully
get back on tumblr! For now I think I just need to heal for a little bit. Thank you very much for showing how much
you care and I love all of you!
know how many times I’ve tried to come back and I can’t exactly explain it but
it’s like this fear creeps up on me every time I do and then I get all panicky
and uncomfortable and then leave. I’m actually writing this on a word document
so I can just copy it to a post and exit as quickly as possible. I’m alright
now but I do occasionally slip back into that state of mind so I want to heal
properly before I do come back. The blog is gonna be empty for while so I’m
really sorry! I don’t use the queue function either because you all know I like
to tag my posts.
I am on
tumblr mobile so yes, I do get your asks and tags and messages and I really
want to answer them but like I said I don’t feel comfortable going online yet
but that doesn’t mean I’m ignoring all of you sweeties! And also because tumblr
mobile is crap… I will be back tho and I will be answering them all once I do.
I’ve also noticed that I’ve gathered quite a number of new followers so Heya! and
I’m sorry the newest post you get from me is something so boring ^^”
Ah, but I do have some good news to share with
you, especially when I come back! Whenever I’m feeling okay, I’m able to write,
so I am working on all my SNS projects. Don’t worry, I haven’t forgotten about
the boyfriends! One of them is about ¾ done and I’ll post it up soon enough ^^
So do look forward to that.
And if you’re
curious as to how my life is…uhhh to be honest, I wish time would stop but
unfortunately life still moves on even when you feel like shit so yeah I still
go to work, still peel myself out of bed to practice and go for my vocal and
piano lessons and pretend that I’m actually a functioning human being. I actually
got selected for a music recording for this drama movie that’s gonna be
released next, next month so I’ve been going to rehearsals too. It’s so hard to
sing when you don’t really feel up to it and what’s worse is all the song I’ve
been given are pop and are all very upbeat so *sighs* not exactly fitting. My
recording is on the 26th and I’m hoping by then I’m okay enough to
do this job and get back to you guys.
All in all,
I do think there’s some improvement to my mental health because I finally got
the will to post this so that’s good. I
really miss you guys and I’ll be back ASAP with SasNar goodies :D Thank you
very much for being so patient and still sticking with me.
Que signing out
for now o/