It’s been a year to the day that my grandmother died.
My take no shit, badass, knows how to accept a child grandmother. If not for her I probably would’ve been kicked out of my house for being gay.
I wear her ring with pride, and the only thing that will replace it on my finger is my wedding band.
Rest granma, you’ve done enough, you’ve earned it

Only two days left before the New Year


1. this semester has gone by way too fast and it’s only indicative of what’s to come next year. things are coming fast and strong and i’m worried i’m somehow going to miss something. 

2. last night i donated a sweater i’ve had for six years to run in the rain in my underwear and the metaphor of being cleansed from past relationships, past lives definitely wasn’t lost on me.

3. it’s been three days of nonstop meetings and with every one, i feel more and more empowered that this is our year to leave a legacy. 

anonymous asked:

You went with your mom to stars on ice what did this think? what were he favorite numbers and skaters?

She loved it, so did my aunt she’s already planning to go back next year.

My mom loved it last year too when we went last minute. She doesn’t have any favourite skaters, she really has just gone because she knows how much I love Tessa and Scott. But her favourite performances are any that the music is fast. She doesn’t really love the slower programs and I get that because when you have a program to a slow song, especially with two people, its about their connection - she’s more just into seeing them skate to the music.

So she LOVED Brick House because it was fast and fun. Last year she loved The Walker the best. She did say she liked Into The Mystic better then How Will I Know. I told her she’s crazy, music wise Sam Smith slays and you can’t top the emotion of HWIK but I guess because they choreographed ITM together in his kitchen (even though she doesn’t know that) - it does get an extra point on the emotional feelsss scale. 

She did comment on how beautiful Tessa was, like I said in my review, we were really close to the ice and we had a camera man in front of us so the skaters were skating ‘to him’ so it would be caught on tape for when the show airs in December. And when Tessa does her part in the Supertramp number it was all happening in front of us. And Tessa is stunning, like incredibly so. 

She also commented on how she thought Tessa looked very skinny. She’s not she’s just more in shape now then she was a year ago - which I feel you can tell - not in a bad way she’s just more toned and tight.

She really enjoyed Joannie this year, both performances actually. And she really loved the music that Kaitlyn and Andrew choose for their first number, Kissing You - she thought it was a beautiful wedding song, which is random considering I hear it and I think of Romeo and Juliet and there’s not a whole lot of happiness in that story. 

The best thing about Figure Skating is that it’s an Old People sport and that means they never stand up, they stay seated which is what I’m all about.

We’re both looking forward to next year….as long as Tessa and Scott are there, so will we. 


End of week 13 - Fifth Third Riverbank run 25K & 25K Sunday run (back to back)

I ran the Riverbank Run 25K this Saturday (May 9). It was a good race, and I was happy with my effort level. It was warmer than last year, and very humid so not really optimal for fast running. I was about 4 minutes off my pace from last year, but still kept it in “reasonably comfortable” tempo effort mode.  I was torn on which shoes to go with, and opted for a pair of Skechers Go Run v4 which has been a very successful fast run shoe for me. 

After the race, I was wondering if I should have gone with the GoRunRide, which has a little more padding. The reason I thought this was that about 3-4 miles before the finish, I started getting some strange pain on the outside of my ankle. It also was a little sore towards the achilles too. I’ve never had this before, and it wasn’t excruciating so I just ran through it.  

I felt fine at the finish (although exhausted!) and enjoyed a nice post run beer with my friend Rob who also ran the 25K. My original training plan had me doing a 24 mile long run today, so I opted to do the 25K race and then do another 25K long run on Sunday the day after.  

The Sunday long run was a slow grinder, and my ankle was sore right from the start.  I was wondering if I should bag it and just go home, but I figured that at some point during my 50 mile race, that something is going to go wrong and I will be in some sort of pain; so this would be good mental toughening practice.  The ankle pain kind of went up and down at times. Sometimes quite bad, other times barely noticeable. It was a really tough grinder of a run, as my legs were pretty tired from the effort the day before. But I felt good about getting it done and having my first really solid back-to-back long runs this training cycle.  

The following week, I was questioning whether doing the followup 25K was smart, as I was plagued by the ankle pain for the remainder of the week. It seemed to get better as the week went on, but it is still lingering a little bit 10 days later as I write this.  I ended up taking off 1 day of running and cutting another run short the week after, due to the ankle stuff. Hopefully it heals up and I start feeling back to normal soon.

An open letter to Taylor


I love writing letters. I love how in a letter you are able to write down your thoughts, feelings, emotions and everything else in between. In letters the words become permanent and I think that this part is what makes letters absolutely beautiful. I guess that’s the way I look at your songs. The lyrics you write are letters of you expressing your emotion and being able to well… say things you may not say otherwise. For me (and I know for others too), each and every one of your songs have hit me exactly where I was during seasons of my life. So where do I begin?

At the Secret Session in Nashville I told you how much your music has meant to me since 2006 (I was 11 then… its CRAZY how fast the years have gone by). That year is when your singles Tim McGraw and Our Song came out. I remember telling my mom that I H-A-D to have your album after I heard Tim McGraw on the radio in Georgia. Right then and there is when I started to look up to you. I knew I liked you then, but I had no idea that 8 years of your music would change me.

Your music has had me laughing and singing through so many parts of my life and I have had so many memories that are tied to your songs.

I remember in high school falling for a boy headfirst fearless. Looking back at it now, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught his eye and I was hoping that it was a new beginning of a fairytale. It came to a point where I honestly didn’t want to dance if I wasn’t dancing with him even though I knew he was trouble. Later on I realized that the face of an angel only came out when he needed it to. Maybe I was naïve, and got lost in his eyes. But I made sure he knew that I was gone forever when he said goodbye.

I wasn’t his princess and that wasn’t my fairytale.

One day – with someone else I know that playful conversation will start and I will counter all his quick remarks. The lingering question will keep me up, 2 a.m., who does he love? And will be enchanted to meet him. And then, maybe, everything will change as I get to know him better now. You will be mine and I will be yours and all I will feel in my stomach is butterflies, the beautiful kind.

But for now…

I realized some bigger dreams of mine and someday I would be living in a big ol’ city (even if people were only ever going be mean about me leaving).

So now during my sophomore year of college…

I have been searching for a sound I hadn’t heard before and it said: “Welcome to Melbourne”. This is a new soundtrack in my life and I could dance to this beat forevermore. Right now I’m just dancing on my own and making the moves up as I go…. And for me, that is OKAY. I am just so happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time. It’s miserable and DEFINITELY magical. But I know it IS going to be alright (OH and luckily I still got that red lip classic thing so that’s good I guess).


Finding myself during the past year has been everything and the greatest adventure.

Taylor, your music has been something I go to when I am happy, sad, and confused (plus a billion other emotions). It has helped me celebrate so many incredible memories and continue dance along. Also it has taught me to put the past behind me and I know that so many others can say the same thing. You have such an amazing, courageous heart to share your true feelings with the world. And for 8 years of listening to your music, you have done this with so much grace and positivity and I have learned so much from you. People might find it silly when I say that you have changed my life, but you have taught me a lot recently that…

We have to dance our way through heartbreak. 

We have to dance our way past the haters.

We have to dance even when we don’t know how.

This is the most important thing I have ever learned.

I am already a super serious kind of person, but recently you have helped me take myself less seriously and shake off the things that honestly don’t really, because…

the players gonna play, play, play, play, play

And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate

Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

I shake it off, I shake it off

Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break

And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake

Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

I shake it off, I shake it off

You stayed so incredibly grounded and true to yourself, even when people told you to be different. You have embraced your flaws, laughed at them, and shown the world that loving yourself and loving people is the best way to live.

So thank you for being someone I look up to. And being the older sister I have never had and for teaching me so much about myself because I have fallen in love with life. I hope to see you soon on tour or maybe on tumblr while I’m on my adventure in Melbourne. Until then…

Long live the walls we crashed through.

I am having the time of my life fighting dragons with you.

Love, your friend,


(p.s. here is my official blog in Australia:

As my junior year of college comes to an end I can’t help but feel pretty sad. I’ve had such an amazing year. I’ve learned so much (school and life related), had wonderful clinical experiences, and to top it off made so many new friends. I’m so happy I was able to put myself out there a little more this year. It’s brought so many wonderful new souls into my life, even if we aren’t too close. I also can’t believe I’m about to be a senior. this is the first year I didn’t want to move out because I was avoiding the fact that 1) this amazing year is over and 2) i’m a senior and the next time I move in will be the last. It’s insane how fast college has gone by. As sad as it is to be heading into my last year im also really excited. I’m so proud of how far I’ve come! And I know once I graduate I will be doing wonderful things. Here’s to a relaxing and super fun summer :)

Almost finished all of my assignments for uni now! One more presentation this week and the I just have 2 exams before I have finished my second year!!! It has gone so so fast! ⌚️⌚️⌚️

My diet has been on the back-burner a little recently, and I have been stress eating too.. I am disappointed in myself but I know that my grades are more important!

As of Monday, I’m going to put a stop to the stress eating and a start to really simple, healthy foods that will take minimal time and effort - leaving lots of time for revision 💪

Lilly xxx

Holy shit babe we grew up way too fast. I’ve just been sitting here thinking about everything… I met you when I hadn’t even got my period yet. We were having slumber parties and listening to Ms. New Booty like yesterday… Now we’re in our twenties, I’ve got 2 kids, you’re training to work in a hospital, I’m an artist, and shits going down all over the place. Between my parents pretty much splitting up, your dad has been gone for 7 years, we’re both working our asses off for chump change, people are dying and we have complete awareness of the shitty things that are happening in the world.. We’re having sex, for Christ’s sakes and our idea of fun isn’t going to chill at the playground to gossip, but instead we run errands and get drunk and high. $20 isn’t a lot of money anymore and the walks to the gas station consist of beer, red bull and cigarettes, not monster/rockstar/nos and nerds ropes. They seriously need to invent time machines, on some real shit. Lol I just had to share that with you. I just can’t believe how fast time really goes by. Never thought I’d see this day this soon.

“Growing Up”

- My best friend Sam C.

Will Taylor Armstrong Return To The Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills?

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Will Taylor Armstrong Return To The Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills?

In a recent interview, former Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Taylor Armstrong opens up about how life has changed since she’s been off the Bravo hit reality show and reveals if she would return.

It’s been a rough ride for Taylor Armstrong on reality television, from being a victim of domestic abuse and her late husband Russell Armstrong’s suicide in 2011. But she’s emerged stronger than ever. Now, Taylor is happily married to John Bluher.

“It’s great, we’re extremely happy,” she tells Too Fab. “The year seems like it’s gone so fast, but it feels like we’ve known each other forever. We just have a really special connection. We’re best friends and spend as much time together as possible. It’s great.”

So great that she might consider returning to RHOBH? “You know, it depends what the circumstances were,” she says. “Now that I have him by my side it would be a completely different situation, having a support system,” she says, referencing her current husband.

”When I was going through the difficulties of being on the show, I also had difficulties behind closed doors in my personal life, and now that I have someone there supporting me, my life is in such a different place that I think I would be a lot stronger and able to stand up for myself a little bit more. Maybe a lot more,” she adds.

Her husband seems to be completely on board. “I would be there to support her and to make sure she takes care of herself,” he says.

Would you like to see Taylor back on RHOBH?