summary: Dan tells Phil the heartbreaking truth and even though it ruins them both, there is not much else say.
warnings: breakup, sadness
a&n: i’ve been away for quite some time now bc of personal reasons but i wrote this after a rush of emotions the other night and i thought i’d share it with you since i haven’t posted in like forever so i’m really sorry if it’s rough and stuff but it’s barely edited and this just makes me very emotional and i’m just so sorry
Phil was smiling, even though it was the very last thing he really wanted to do. He couldn’t help himself though, couldn’t possibly manage to tear down the smile he was wearing, almost as if strings were keeping the corners of his mouth lifted in order to keep himself from falling apart. Because honestly he was just that – falling apart. Really, his insides were crashing in on themselves, his ribcage slowly withering to dust and polluting his veins with a sickening feeling, sadness and hatred seeping through him like poison. He was everything but happy, and yet he smiled like nothing was wrong.
Dan was also smiling. Smiling because he couldn’t find anything else to do. Smiling because, even though he’d just broken the heart of someone he loved, there was nothing he could do. He’d been honest because it was the right thing to do, and he knew that this would most likely destroy absolutely everything but he had to be honest. It was almost worse to keep the other waiting and wondering if something would become anything, than to just be straight up honest, and he knew that this was the best thing to do in the long run. The most kind thing to do, even though he knew that he was tearing the other to shreds.