this is so bad and im not even sorry

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hey im!! reallly sorry but things have been really bad for me lately

my depression, anxiety, paranoia, everything has suddenly just like. became really really overwhelming. it started a few weeks ago and its just been getting progressively worse and worse. i even planned to kill myself a few days ago, but people got me to change my mind.

ive been unable to go without having an anxiety attack / breakdown / depressive episode every single day for the past few weeks. so i just wanted to say, im sorry if i have any outbursts or act out badly. im sorry if i pressure anyone or stress them out with my behavior, as well. nothing has really been helping me or distracting me like usual and i dont know what to do to control it or push it down any more.

this sounds really selfish and stupid, but its also recommended that if you can, please reassure me that im wanted and not a horrible person. only if you want to. i keep getting horrible mood swings and fits of paranoia where i convince myself everyone hates me and i should be gone. if any of that stresses you out im really terribly sorry. i need company and reassurance when im like this, and if you feel like im pressuring you or that it would upset you you dont have to say anything to me. im sorry

hopefully i can calm down and feel better soon. im really really sorry.

also if you have my vent blog its recommended you check that regularly when you can while this goes on, just to keep me from doing anything stupid

I DREW THIS AND IT’S PRETTY BAD (SORRY) BUT I KINDA LIKE IT AT THE SAME TIME. I was really tired and stressed so I did it quickly, but I hope you guys like it! ArtRage is really fricking stupid sometimes so the awful cherry blossoms I drew are not even the right color. And I apologize for their weird looking chins like I did not even notice that.

(All I could think while drawing this was ‘KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE’)

anonymous asked:

im only 5'1 and i have really bad anxiety so ive always been terrified to even go into the pit. i always stand in the back near the bar if its a smaller venue or otherwise i get seats. ive seen 21p twice and its so scary watching the crowd as a whole from the back bc you can see all the pushing. i really hope tyler and/or josh say something abt it bc i hate being scared to go closer to the stage :/

oh gosh im sorry :-( yeah i really hope they do too 

anonymous asked:

THE NEW SINGLE IS SO GOOD I AM LITERALLY CRYING THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME BECAUSE I'VE BEEN FEELING VERY GUILTY OVER SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED A LONG TIME AGO AND THIS SONG HAS MADE ME FEEL FREE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER A YEAR SORRY I JUST WANTED TO TELL SOMEONE THAT

ITS SO GOOD IM SO IN LOVE HONESTLY I CANT EVEN PUT IT INTO WORDS HOW MUCH I LOVE IT AND IM SO GLAD IT MADE YOU FEEL FREE OVER THE GUILT THAT YOU HAVE BEEN FEELING FRIEND THATS FANTASTIC LITERALLY ITS AMAZING HOW THIS BAND HELPS PEOPLE HONESTLY I MYSELF HAVE BEEN IN A BAD PLACE RECENTLY AND THIS SONG MADE ME JUST FORGET ALL THOSE BAD THOUGHTS I HAD ABOUT MYSELF AND ABOUT MAYBE ENDING IT ALL AND IVE NEVER BEEN SO GRATEFUL SO LOOKS LIKE THIS SONG HELPED BOTH OF US IM SO GLAD OMG AND I DONT MIND AT ALL THAT YOU MESSAGED ME

HONESTLY IF ANYONE ELSE WANTS YO MESSAGE ME ABOUT THE SONG FEEL FREE

I KNOW THIS QUOTE IS OLD BUT I STILL LIKE IT anyway i hope you had a merry christmas 

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asami is korra’s heart

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Those twinkling vixens with the shining spiral eyes;

their hypnosis goes unnoticed when she’s walking by.

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“The Sindarin Princes of the Silvan Elves”

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poor luke pt.2 +

Daniel Sharman 💟

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Middle-earth History Meme: Yet more Elves! (The Children of Finarfin & Eärwen … also Orodreth. Because I prefer Orodreth son of Angrod? but I also didn’t want to leave him out…..)

Also bonus accurate-hair-aegnor for Gaia:

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Law that’s not how you train dogs at all??

IT CALLS FOR A DOG AU! Veera said like wow imagine this and then I was like hell yeah and ta-daa, I had to draw it. Law is the frustrated owner of this mutt Luffy, give him strength.

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- Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility.