hey im!! reallly sorry but things have been really bad for me lately
my depression, anxiety, paranoia, everything has suddenly just like. became really really overwhelming. it started a few weeks ago and its just been getting progressively worse and worse. i even planned to kill myself a few days ago, but people got me to change my mind.
ive been unable to go without having an anxiety attack / breakdown / depressive episode every single day for the past few weeks. so i just wanted to say, im sorry if i have any outbursts or act out badly. im sorry if i pressure anyone or stress them out with my behavior, as well. nothing has really been helping me or distracting me like usual and i dont know what to do to control it or push it down any more.
this sounds really selfish and stupid, but its also recommended that if you can, please reassure me that im wanted and not a horrible person. only if you want to. i keep getting horrible mood swings and fits of paranoia where i convince myself everyone hates me and i should be gone. if any of that stresses you out im really terribly sorry. i need company and reassurance when im like this, and if you feel like im pressuring you or that it would upset you you dont have to say anything to me. im sorry
hopefully i can calm down and feel better soon. im really really sorry.
also if you have my vent blog its recommended you check that regularly when you can while this goes on, just to keep me from doing anything stupid