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"If I have to hear anymore about the Super Bowl, I think I’m going to punch someone. A bunch of muscly, sweaty guys fighting over balls isn’t exactly what I want to spend my Sunday watching."

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Galvojau, iš ko susideda gyvenimas. Kas jį daro gražų, turiningą, įsimenamą, tačiau mano mintyse kilo tik keistos mintys, keisti pamąstymai apie viską, kas šiuo metu vyksta mano gyvenime.

"Nežinau"- tai dažniausiai vartojamas žodis mano mažame pasaulyje.    "Kodėl?" - daugiausiai kartų naudojamas klausimas.

Ir kodėl taip yra? Kodėl nežinau ir kodėl klausiu kodėl? Keista, bet metai bėga greitai, o aš stoviu patalpoje, kurioje į mane nukreiptos visos prožektorių šviesos, tik aš pastebima,  tik aš net ir apšviesta kai kam esu nematoma. Galvoje sukasi milijonai minčių. ” Ką padaryti, kad būčiau pastebėta?” , “Ką padaryti, kad tapčiau nepastebima?”. Iš tiesų pati savęs nesuprantu, norėčiau, kad skaitytų mano pamąstymus daugelis žmonių, kad jiems patiktų, kad iš manęs imtų interviu, kad būčiau įdomi, bet kita mano pusė nenori šlovės, nenori to viešumo, kuris neleidžia turėti asmeninio gyvenimo ir paslapčių. Kažkoks paradoksas. Ir bėgant laikui aš nežinau, kuria savimi pasitikėti. Nežinau į kurią pusę pasukti, kad būtų gerai. Ir ar kada nors bus visiškai gerai?

Tad ir toliau rašau anonimiškai, tik artimiausiems draugams duodanti elektroninio dienoraščio adresą, ir mintyse besitikinti, kad slapta būsiu pastebėta tinkamų žmonių. Ir štai, taip bėga mano gyvenimas.Slaptai, anonimiškai, negirdimai, bet norint būtų kažkuo daugiau nei tai.

Once you’ve been tagged, you’re supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 20 people to tag. Also tag the person who tagged you. I was tagged by jariimaenpaa

WHAT WAS YOUR… 

1. Last beverage: Lemonade
2. Last phone call: My producer
3. Last text message: My dad
4. Last song you listened to: Satyricon - Tro og Kraft (<3)
5. Last time you cried: a couple of weeks ago I think
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope
9. Lost someone special: nope
10. Been depressed: Probably
11. Been drunk and threw up: surprisingly nope
LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12. black
13. blood red
14. purple
LAST YEAR (2014), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: Nope
17. Laughed until you cried: Yis
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list: yes
GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: not enough
24. Do you have any pets: only a rubber duck :(
25. Do you want to change your name: nah, Oscar’s good enough
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Spent it in Poland with my gf
27. What time did you wake up today: 13:40ish ._.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Mixing a new song
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: TIME II or maybe completing my album :’)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: probably a year or more
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I wasn’t as stubborn and lazy, and I might do even better

32. What are you listening to right now: Satyricon - Our world, it rumbles tonight
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: Yes
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: My microphone which is screwing around :c
35. Most visited web page: facebook probably
37. Nickname: Ozzy was an old one and now people just call me Angmaer which is coolio
38. Relationship Status: taken 
39. Zodiac sign: taurus
40. Pronouns: Him/he? I guess
41. Elementary: Nursery* Woodfield Nursery 
42. High School: Highfields
43. College: Academy of Music and Sound
44. Hair colour: Dirty blond
45. Long or short: long wat, hair? Yeah
46. Height: 6’1”
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yes
48. What do you like about yourself?: I make sexy music B)
49. Piercings: none
50. Tattoos: none yet
51.Righty or lefty?: righty
FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: never had surgery before
53. First piercing: nothing
54. First best friend: Marc, who I met in year 7 and now we’ve made a cool bm band together
55. First sport you joined: Cross-country running
56. First vacation: Wales <3
58. First pair of trainers: fuck knows
RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: cheese pizza
60. Drinking: nothing
61. I’m about to: Eat more and listen to sweet sweet Satyricon
62. Listening to: Satyricon - Nocturnal flare lol
63. Waiting for: easter so I can go to Poland again </3
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: eh
65. Get Married?: ehhhh
66. Career?: Successful music producer/run a cat daycare centre
WHICH IS BETTER: 

67. Lips or eyes: Both (I can’t choose D:)
68. Hugs or kisses: kisses
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I can’t choose either
73. Sensitive or loud: Turned up to 11
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: Both I suppose
HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broke someone’s heart: Yes
81. Had your own heart broken: Not sure
82. Been arrested: nearly but nah
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: Only when Jeff Hanneman died .-.
85. Fallen for a friend: Nope
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Hell yeah
87. Miracles: eh maybe
88. Love at first sight: Maybe
89. Heaven: Yes, only when a good amount of cider is circulating inside me
90. Santa Claus: nah

91. God: Yeah, me. I am my own god and I believe in myself so yah
92. Angels: yeah

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Thank you!