Hopefully as you get older, you start to learn how to live with your demon. It’s hard at first. Some people give their demon so much room that there is no space in their head or bed for love. They feed their demon and it gets really strong and then it makes them stay in abusive relationships or starve their beautiful bodies. But sometimes, you get a little older and get a little bored of the demon. Through good therapy and friends and self-love you can practice treating the demon like a hacky, annoying cousin. Maybe a day even comes when you are getting dressed for a fancy event and it whispers, “You aren’t pretty,” and you go, “I know, I know, now let me find my earrings.” Sometimes you say, “Demon, I promise you I will let you remind me of my ugliness, but right now I am having hot sex so I will check in later.
—  Amy Poehler, Yes Please

so today i decided to make a little program to help me with mindfulness / emotional regulation?

so basically i made a python script that prompts me to list out the emotions that i am feeling, and for each emotion makes me write out why i think i’m feeling it, whether i think it is a fair/rational feeling (because like sometimes i can tell that i am feeling an irrational thing), what i want the outcome of the situation to be, and what individual steps *i* can take in the situation

and then it stores all of that information in a text file named w the current date and time, so that later i can look back and review my feelings

anyway if you think this might be useful for you / you know how to use python, here is the text of the program? sorry for it not being the cleanest/most efficient code oops i am a terrible programmer

anyway

yeah

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  • Me:I'm feeling pretty bad and need help.
  • Mental health professionals:Yeah sure that's what we're here for!
  • Me:OK, but your treatment plan, does it include this particular thing?
  • them:No!
  • Me:OK then.
  • them:(later) If you want us to help you you'll have to do [thing] though!
  • Me:wait what no, I've been told otherwise.
  • them:Well, that was another colleage who doesn't work here anymore (and they practically lied to you). We'll do [thing].
  • Me:No way. I don't want or need to do that thing. Here are reasons for why it's not necessary and some more for why I don't want it and some more for why it's not even possible for me.
  • them:Well if you don't want to do [thing], we can't help you!
  • Me:Why not? I need these things that you can easily provide, why won't you do that for me?
  • them:because. Also you'll only get better if you do [thing].
  • Me:No. *repeats resons why that won't make me better and isn't even possible*
  • Me:Please give reasons for why you think [thing] is necessary.
  • them:*never give an answer to that or acknowledge all the reasons I gave*
  • them:[Thing] is part of the way we do things here.
  • Me:But it won't work for me and I don't know where else to find help! You're the only place that could help me and I need help.
  • them:...
  • Me:Something a bit similar to [thing] has been forced on me in the past and it was v bad and traumatised me.
  • them:See? You're just triggered! But we're nothing like those people who did that so stop complaining already!
  • Me:I *know* you're not like those people! I have a long list of other reasons written down why that's bad/won't work for me. Please just listen to me?
  • them:*don't listen*
  • them:*don't help me get over my alleged trigger or work around that at all*
  • them:Well, we won't kick you out.
  • them:*kick me out*