i cant stop thinking about how
my math teacher said one girl on our math teams purpose on the team
is to go to the competitions and distract boys from other schools
so they dont do as well.
and yes, this girl is pretty,
but this pretty girl is 14 years old
and this pretty 14 year old girl is learning
to use her body and her face
instead of her mind
and she is being taught priorities:
looks come before brains,
rely on your appearance
rather than your abilities.
this girl could be the greatest mathematician of our generation
but she’s too busy putting on makeup
and distracting boys
to even know it.

i cant stop thinking about how
on average
2 black people have been killed each week
by a policeman
for the past 6 years
as if their lives do not matter
as if their skin color determines their right to live
or to be free.
young black girls are taught to be scared
young black boys are taught to be scary.
discipline does not mean death.

i cant stop thinking about how
last month a gay couple was kicked out of a cab
in houston
and told they were going to hell
as if cab drivers were the ultimate decision makers on such subjects
as if being told hell was imminent
would suddenly make these men like girls.

i cant stop thinking about how i go to a blackhawks game
and notice every single person who works there is a man
announcer, assistant coach, athletic trainer,
chiropractor, coach, customer relations,
equipment manager, finance analyst,
general manager, goalie coach, lighting technician,
mascot coordinator, massage therapist, nutritionist, organist,
photographer, physician, president, recruiter, scout, team dentist,
as if a woman is not capable of doing any of these jobs.
as if a woman could not handle being a mascot coordinator
for a sport as violent as hockey.

i cant stop thinking about how a boy told me
that a woman couldnt be president of the USA,
as if he would be a better fit for the job.
he said that once a month,
a woman president would ruin everything,
as if periods didnt occur when estrogen is low
and testosterone is high,
thus making women as close to men
as they will ever be.
as if womens worth fluctuates
on a monthly cycle.

i cant stop thinking about how
the same boy said
“how messed up do you have to be
to be transgender?”
in the middle of our english class
as if there was no one there he couldve hurt
as if there is no one that could be affected by those words
as if there is anything at all wrong
with not agreeing with
your anatomy.

i cant stop thinking about how
ray kurzweil,
a scientist and author,
thinks he can end death
and let humans live forever.
he says he can stop the aging process
and he says it will be a huge leap for mankind.
as if death is the only thing that plagues us.
but i cant stop thinking about how
death is the only thing that can save us.
this generation will die,
and hopefully,
the hostility and discrimination will die with it.
the evolution of ideas
is the most important aspect of the human population
if no one died,
we would have the same ideas for the rest of time;
justice would never be attained
equality would never be accomplished
and people would go on living how we are now:
scared, lonely, weak, judgemental.
death is important, because
in death comes a fresh start.
hopefully that fresh start includes
the right to life
for everyone.
i hope ray kurzweil is wrong.

i cant stop thinking about how
we should all be permitted to live.