I wish I knew how to interact normally with other people.
Have you felt invisible whenever you are left alone in a crowd and you don’t know everyone? That feeling when you get so flustered that you trip on your own words whenever you talk to someone for the first time? That moment when you make fool out of yourself because you don’t know the next word you’ll say to make the conversation last longer? I know, it’s annoying that you want to punch yourself in the face because you can’t even make a good conversation.
I hate it. Why can’t I joke around and be comfortable with other people, especially those persons I met the first time? I see them laughing and they seem to be enjoying each others company. Should I butt in their conversation and destroy the fun moment? Why am I allowing myself not to be happy with the presence of others?
I ended up observing them thinking, "That could be me. I can have the good laughs while talking to other people." However, it struck my mind and I realized that I am alone, no one tried to look at me because they have their own business and I shouldn’t mind them. They don’t care, really. After all, why would they?