Here my two cents on 'cosplay' for anyone insterested. Fair warning, it's long, it's harsh, and it's the truth.
I’m over it. Plain and simple. I started costuming before the term ‘cosplay’ was a thing. Making costumes was my dream job, and finding out there was a whole community of people out there who shared this interest thrilled me. Cosplay allowed me to do things, and go places I never would have dreamed, so I thank the heavens every day for that opportunity. Despite these high notes, I always felt it was a rat race. Yes, I willingly built up a ‘fan base’ because everyone loves that sort of attention (you’re lying if you say you don’t), but I never thought it would grow into a contest on who had more fans. Quality over quantity was always my feeling on it. My fan base rocks. On that note, I feel like being in the public eye for such a superficial thing has major downsides. I shaved my head for the last three years to portray one of my favorite characters, Asajj Ventress, and really killed it at conventions with that costume. There weren’t many bald cosplayers (at least, ‘well known’ ones) in the scene at the time. Now, shaving your head is just another thing to do for cosplay. Don’t read into that like I’m some hipster ‘I did it first’ sort of thing, it’s just that I had done it for so long that I no longer want to. Plus, when you’re bald, people just assume you’re going to do every bald girl in geek history. No, I dont want to cosplay Jack from Mass Effect because I have never, nor will I ever play that game. No, I don’t want to cosplay Nebula from Guardians of the Galaxy, solely because she wasn’t a favorite character of mine. It’s that simple. I cosplay characters that I personally like; I never did it to please anyone but myself.
Yes, I’m selfish like that.
Yes, I’m a person with feelings and likes and dislikes and everything in between. So treat me like it. I’m not a doll to dress up in your fantasy.
I have started to rebel against the community recently due to the insane amount of competition and caddyness amongst it’s members. Plain and simply, I’m tired. I don’t want to sell prints, I don’t have the energy to try and make money at it, and I really don’t like travelling a lot.
It’s not a priority in my life right now. I’m working my ass off so that me and my family can live comfortably. That’s a priority. I want to save my money so we can buy a house, get a car that doesn’t break down every month or so, and have a decent wedding, without going broke or worrying about the money. I can’t do any of those things if I’m buying fabric, taking time off work to go to conventions, and all that jazz.
I want to be able to go to one, maybe two conventions a year, see NEW things, see old friends, and not feel stressed out about any of it.
I want to be able to hang out with my friends, and the basis of conversation doesn’t revolve around cosplay or convention schedules.
I want to be able to see people in public without them asking me what costume I’m working on, and when I tell them I’m not working on anything, they won’t say ‘oh, well you should totally cosplay *blah blah blah*’.
I want a house, where I can create original art, and have friends over to just relax and have fun. No stress of working on projects or anything.
I want to be knowm as an artist, not a cosplayer.
Yes, I will still be a geek. I will still talk about sci fi, and comic books, and movies, and everything else I always have. I’m not going to change. Yes, I will still be rocking my Mando to events when the time comes, but no, I will not be cosplaying Ventress for the foreseeable future. Yes, we will still attend Phoenix Comic Con, but as of right now, that’s the only convention we’re planning on going to (besides Celebration in April…I’ve had those tickets for almost two years now).
So I apologize to those of you who wanted to see me at a convention in your home town, but I really need to step back and focus on the long term goals in my life. Conventions/cosplay just aren’t high priorities for me anymore.
My Tumblr will not change, though. It will stay it’s awesome self, and I’ll be able to focus more on making video posts and other content for you guys who stick with me :)
I love all 4k of you. I really do. Thank you for all the support over the years, and I hope we all get to meet someday