anonymous said:

That girl never said she asked a woman that was 30 weeks in labor, she said she showed a 30 week model you pathetic egotistical swine lol fucking kill yourself before you act like you know shit

I never said she was 30 weeks in labour either. If someones been in labour for thirty weeks though I can’t imagine they’re fairing so well though, I mean my mother was only in labour for a few days and that nearly killed her, I imagine she must be a tough cookie.

And looking back I can see I did misread it. But I mean, how pathetic do you have to be to tell someone to kill themselves over being pro choice for a post they commented on 3 months ago?

Also telling people to kill themselves on the internet? Stay classy. You sure you’re pro life there anon?

Also you should note that I actually fail to meet the definition of egotistical as I am not excessively conceited or absorbed in myself. I actually kinda hate myself for the most part and try not to think about myself as much as possible as the thoughts I do have tend to be somewhat negative. Therefore I cannot be egotistical.

And swine, or pigs, are actually lovely, intelligent, emotional creatures. Not much of an insult here.

0/10 though, try again on the anon hate! (BTW did you know it’s actually illegal to tell people to kill themselves? Come send in another one though okay? Don’t let your failures stop you!!)

i woke up from a dream where it felt like i’d been in the dream for a whole lifetime and i spent such a long time wanting to remember what it was like and how i felt and the conversations i’d had but it had all gone

i woke up feeling hollow, like i’d lost something

what i do remember is that in the dream i felt fulfilled in that the characters in the dream were the people i knew in waking life but the difference was that we were all so much happier and i can’t even begin to access how that felt just that i can’t feel it now

suicide/depression tw

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No One Sings Songs for Sad Black Girls

I was only twelve years old when I first contemplated suicide. With tears laced with my father’s verbal lashings and a crippling self hatred streaming down my face, I emptied a bottle of painkillers into my hand, preparing to swallow them down. My mother walked in, talking me down off the proverbial cliff I had climbed onto and sent me off to school. 

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Today is World Suicide Prevention Day, and this is a reminder that bisexuals are at higher risk for suicide.

"When controlled for potentially confounding factors, bisexual men were 6.3 times more likely and gay men 4.1 times more likely than heterosexual men to report lifetime suicidality. Among women, bisexuals were 5.9 times more likely and lesbians 3.5 times more likely to report lifetime suicidality than their heterosexual counterparts.” (x)

Here is a list of hotlines to call if you need to talk to someone. If any of the information is incorrect or outdated, please let us know. Feel free to reblog and add on additional hotlines.

United States Hotlines

  • Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
  • Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
  • LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
  • Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
  • Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
  • Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
  • Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
  • Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
  • Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
  • Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-439-4253

International Hotlines

  • Canada 514-723-4000
  • United Kingdom 08457-90-90-90
  • Argentina 23-930430
  • Armenia 2-538-194 or 2-538-197
  • Australia 1800-198-313
  • Austria 01-713-3374
  • Barbados 429-9999
  • Brazil 21-233-9191
  • China 852-2382-0000
  • Costa Rica 506-253-5439
  • Croatia 0800-123-123 (work days 10h-22h)
  • Cyprus 0-777-267
  • Denmark 70-201-201
  • Egypt 7621602
  • Estonia 6-558-088
  • Finland 040-5032199
  • France 01-45-39-4000
  • Germany 0800-1110-111
  • Guatemala 502-254-1259
  • Holland 0900-0767
  • Honduras 504-237-3623
  • Hungary 62-420-111
  • India 91-22-307-3451
  • Italy 06-7045-4444
  • Japan 3-5286-9090
  • Lithuania 8-800-2-8888
  • Malaysia 03-756-8144
  • Mauritius 46-48-889 / 800-93-93
  • Mexico 525-510-2550
  • New Zealand 4-473-9739
  • Nicaragua 505-268-6171
  • Norway 815-33-300
  • Poland 52-70-000
  • Portugal 239-72-10-10
  • Republic of Ireland 1850-60-90-90
  • Russia 8-20-222-82-10 007 8202 577 577
  • Serbia 021-6623-393 (14h-23h)
  • Singapore 800-221-4444 (000-227-0309) (24 hrs / 7 days)
  • Slovenia 116-123 (24/7)
  • Southern Africa 0861-322-322 (24 hrs)
  • South Korea 2-715-8600
  • Spain 91-459-00-50
  • Sri Lanka 1-692-909
  • St. Vincent 809-456-1044
  • Sweden 031-711-2400
  • Switzerland 143
  • Thailand 02-249-9977
  • Trinidad & Tobago 868-645-2800
  • Ukraine 0487-327715 / 0482-226565
  • Yugoslavia 021-623-393

I’d like to take some time to talk about a couple things that are very close to my heart; Hanecdote and depression, When I launched the Ghoul Guide patches in June 2013 I had no ideas of the positivity they would spread across the world. They opened up a whole new platform for me to voice my beliefs in feminism and my experiences with depression and solidarity with mental health sufferers.

I’m writing this because I want to make people happy; I want to encourage people to love and be kind to themselves. I created a series of reward patches called ‘Little Victories; for that exact purpose, to give yourself a pat on the back for doing the little things which are so difficult for people who suffer with depression and anxiety. To buy for yourself as a “well done” or as a sign of support for a friend in a dark place; these patches serve multiple purposes. When I get feedback from my customers and followers my heart fills with joy knowing that I have impacted on someone’s mood as well as helping them on their own journey to happiness and self love.

I also just released a series called ‘Positivity Patches’ which is exactly what it says on the label. The aims of these patches are to spread a bit of brightness on an otherwise gloomy day whether that’s a message to yourself or those around you. I’ve suffered with depression since I was 14 and my experiences with it have deeply affected who I am and how I look at life. Depression affects so many people’s lives, not just the person suffering. It can feel like no one cares or that you’d be better off dead or like you’re a burden.

It’s a horrible lonely existence at worst and an emotionally draining burden at best. Suicide attempts, self harm and severe mood swings put my life on hold and prevented me from going to school properly. But despite that, I managed to get a BTEC Level 3 in Art and Design with only two GCSE’s and I’m now at university studying what I love. I still struggle everyday but if I can inspire and encourage someone else to keep going, I think I’ll be ok.

I like to think I am making a difference by producing these patches for people like me who need positive reinforcement. When I post my ‘Don’t Give Up’ patch on instagram and get comments like “I needed this <3” and “Thank you” all the late nights sewing have been worth it and even a small amount of sadness goes away for a while, knowing I’ve helped someone else. I hope I get to do this for a long time because it is the most rewarding thing I’ve ever achieved and it keeps me alive. Hanecdote’s prosperity and support keeps me alive and smiling even when my depression wants me curled up in bed. Thank you. 


As awesome as Kieren is, he deals with really shitty self esteem. His feeling that he deserves the guilt of killing people is semi-normal for the trauma he’s faced, but he also has to deal with the fact that he hates what he is. He can’t look at himself in the mirror, can’t imagine anyone liking him in the state that he is. But I think those reactions are, if not reasonable, at least expected from someone in his position with his mental health issues. He has residual fears, too, from the way the locals treated him even before he was PDS. Memories of the things that cut him to the core and drove him to the edge. Yet again, this is at least slightly expected considering the result of that bullying from the townspeople.

But Kieren doesn’t even think he’s worth his parents wanting to see him. He thinks they’ll hate him because he’s a zombie that killed people. He thinks that because of what he is, his family shouldn’t want to see him or talk to him. And when he gets home, he’s surprised that he was even missed. He’s surprised that his parents actually kept his room. He honestly thought no one would care if that he died and everyone would be better off and just go on with their lives without him as if he was never there. That he should just be easily replaced.

And after everything, he cannot bring himself to believe that he’s not a burden to his family in this state. He can’t bring himself to believe that they’re not just housing him because they have to and that they aren’t just tolerating him. He can’t believe they’d still want him around as a PDS sufferer, as someone who brought them so much pain and worry because of his mental illness and his death and his new state as a PDS sufferer. He still thinks they wouldn’t care if he left, that everyone would be better off if he left. That he’s worthless the way he is. He hates himself and what he is and I don’t think he can see any of the things that others see in him except the shit the townspeople say about him. He cannot believe that his family would want him to stay. He can’t fathom anyone liking him and wanting him around when all he sees is a worthless guilty monster.

Tumblr and suicide

Forced by life, I discovered that tumblr had prepared a support and prevention page for suicide, self harm, eating disorder etc. Unfortunately it is not very visible.

So here is a copy of the page. Please PLEASE even if you do not use it, reblog for your followers, you never know….

Counseling and Prevention Resources

Are you having a tough time? If you are struggling with an eating disorder, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, or just need to talk to someone, please reach out to counselors at one of the services listed below. They are ready to help and want to hear from you.

If you are, or someone you know is, in immediate danger, please call a local emergency telephone number or go immediately to the nearest emergency room.

Free and Confidential Counseling

In the United States Australia Brazil Chile France Germany Greece Japan Spain UK Other countries

Learn More and Get Involved

If you know someone who is struggling, please encourage them to use these services. Expressing how much you care can make a huge difference in that person’s life.

And to contact tumblr staff it is at the bottom of the page


By Dr. Andrea Letamendi

September 8–14 is National Suicide Prevention Week, an annual campaign sponsored by the American Association of Suicidology that recognizes suicide as a major public health concern and promotes the message that suicide deaths can be preventable. In the U.S. alone, nearly 40,000 people take their own lives each year. That’s an average of 105 deaths per day. Yet, unlike the campaigns focused on the 9 other leading causes of death, suicide prevention isn’t just about raising funds and improving treatment. Suicide is associated with stigma and misconceptions that often close the dialogue and prevent us from learning how we can overcome this epidemic. We don’t talk about it. We are scared to ask about it. We simply don’t know what to do.

It is undeniable that all of us are thinking about suicide. We thought about it when Hank Pym (Ant-Man) contemplated ending his life after years of stress on his constantly-morphing body. We thought about it when Roy Harper (Red Arrow) was tormented by his phantom limb pain and overdosed on painkillers. We thought about it when Bruce Banner confessed that he could no longer withstand the internal destruction caused by the Hulk, but when he put a bullet in his mouth, “the other guy spit it out.” Everyone who’s read Neil Gaiman’s The Sandman can stand up. You’ve thought about it, too. Constantine. Deadshot. Mr. Terrific. Rorschach. Nearly every character in The Walking Dead. The list of narratives goes on, some more explicit than others.

Fiction is one of the most common ways we openly explore suicidality and connect with feelings of hopelessness, despair, and depression. Comics allow us to participate in the subversive in a way that is culturally acceptable. We break that rule and seem to enter a place of insecurity and isolation when we begin admitting our own feelings of anguish and thoughts of self-harm.

Misconceptions About Suicide

When actor and comedian Robin Williams died by suicide on August 11, 2014, the creative community was momentarily paralyzed. Questions poured out of us as we experienced a strange combination of feeling shocked, yet unsurprised.

What went wrong? I thought he was doing better. He didn’t look depressed. I thought only those who were depressed commit suicide.

For those of us in the mental health field, these questions aren’t new. We know, for instance, that people who are not clinically depressed attempt suicide (dealing with chronic pain, drug and alcohol dependence, anxiety disorders, and other mental health problems can also lead to suicidality). We know that some people take their own lives in periods of happiness. We know that people contemplate suicide in euphoric states. We also know that people die while in our care. Half of individuals who die by suicide had seen a medical doctor within the last month. Over a third of people who die by suicide had seen a mental health professional — yes, a person who should be qualified to recognize warning signs — within the last 30 days.

If you’re already feeling frustrated and confused, you should be. Every time we lose someone to suicide, I’m asked, “Why aren’t officials in the mental health system doing something about this?” The truth is, they are.

In June, I was invited to Washington, D.C. to participate in something called the Zero Suicide Academy. Launched by the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services and the Department of Defense, the Academy was created to enhance the national infrastructure for suicide prevention. Scientists-practitioners and mental health professionals were gathered from all over the country to learn strategies and interventions. It was like the Hogwarts for suicide prevention, only instead of learning magic we were learning how to save lives.

The word “zero” is a firm response to a deeply held belief in our society that we cannot save everyone, that suicide “will inevitably happen.”  Some even believe, ”If someone wants to die, who are we to stop them?” I can understand that this question stems from a culture that values free will, individualism, choice. The problem is that the person contemplating suicide and deciding that ending their life is an option may not know about other options available to them that can also end their pain. The Bridge, a film project that explored suicide attempts at the Golden Gate Bridge revealed that the few survivors of the near-fatal fall never tried to kill themselves again. The goal of zero suicides, therefore, supports the idea that everyone who considers suicide fundamentally wants to live. Something inside of us wants to spit that bullet out.


If you or someone you know is suicidal, contact a mental health professional or call 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

The Gate Misogyny Built

"#GamerGate" is not a new phenomena. Underneath a thin veneer of concern about journalistic ethics, nepotism and bias, #GamerGate is just another sexist hate campaign. It’s not about changing games media for the better. It’s about forcing progressive voices out of the industry. It’s about defending the perceived sanctity of games and "gamers". It’s about preserving the status quo.

This article summarizes events characterized by pervasive sexism, racism, transmisogyny, ableism, harassment, threats of violence, rape, and suicide. Please exercise caution when following any and all links.

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I went outside to count the stars and there was nothing so maybe the sky wants company and maybe my hearts been in the dirt too long and maybe it gets better but it is not right now and I cannot take this feeling

Maybe I will learn to shine in the night this time if all of the pretty colors mix together and maybe that’s enough to bring salvation and there are just enough maybes left for me to wonder if I should take the chance and maybe the answer to that is maybe only the morning light will tell

To all who I share mutual love with I’m sorry but it’s too hard now