bony thoughts

growing and transforming into who I’m meant to be is an arduous process. rather than feeling like an emerging butterfly in some exquisite metaphor, I feel like a dusty archaeologist, hovering over a dig, wielding tiny brushes to unearth giant dinosaur bones that will later be assembled and put on display.

I ache as if I’ve been in one position too long. I’m tired of not having a full picture of how things should look. I’m thirsty for a break in the struggle yet am hooked on the excitement of each discovery. I resent when people push dirt back my way, covering up progress.

the sun is high in my life and there seems to be no shade. no shelter. but I don’t want to give up and lie among the ruins. I want to live and love and push through until I am flayed by life and my bones have no choice but to fall from sheer exhaustion.

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Update video - Let’s Get Serious

Why do stupid people have to exist, like can we not all just co exist and learn not to do stupid stuff that is going to HURT other people?! This new “prank” SWATing needs to stop, like right now, the police are there to keep people safe not to bring some sick twisted humor and sad joy into your pathetic life, so please can this just stop?

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Feel free to request something more or less detailed! I can draw most types of characters.

I'm Trying Streaming

So I always promised myself I would attempt streaming in college and I think I’m going to try my first live stream.  It will be on Twitch at 7 CST this Saturday.  I’m going to be playing Titanfall.  I will probably play marked for death and Last Titan Standing.  You can follow on twitch here. You can also follow me on Twitter for updates here.  Wish me luck! I’m really nervous…


twangy palette

lauded for style
nobody heeded a cry
how can I write
when in the morning
all I can think
is how I’m
dressed in black and blue
to match my insides
and how Johnny Cash
would sing the fuck
out of the lyrics
in my head
before setting fire
to the sin
in my heart
all the while
pulling me closer
his seductive lilt
and commanding stance
pushing me
to make myself black and blue
to match my clothes

Home media-streaming with Now TV box and Plex

Home media-streaming with NowTV box and Plex - Do it, do it now! @plexapp @nowtv

A week or so ago I bought a Now TV box, which is essentially a Roku box but branded, and subsidized, by Sky. It seems Sky have seen the rise in popularity of streaming services like Netflix and Amazon Prime as a threat – or perhaps they just want a piece of the pie. In any event, Sky has entered the streaming market with their own service, called Now TV. It has newer offerings than any streaming…

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smoky layers

left the sterile room
for an alley
of freshly fetid air
couldn’t stand
another breath
of smoke
filled with his song
tends to interrupt
polite cocktail conversation
even in jazz clubs
where walls smolder
with brushed cymbals
and Satch’s sax
though he got it
with his Swiss mix
and swiveled breaks
how blue the black gets
sleekly stretched
paper thin translucent skin
bruised sheets
left fallow
so much trouble
and rolled up cuffs
facile down beats
tactile tongue in grooves
music seems same
but lyrics have changed
or breath was held too long
again as horn plays against rain

Someone in Congress is messing with an Orange Is The New Black star’s Wikipedia page

Shortly after 10 p.m. last night, somebody from within the United States House of Representatives changed the Wikipedia entry for Laverne Cox, a transgender actress who plays transgender inmate Sophia Burset on Orange Is the New Black. The entry originally said that an article in The Advocate “touted that Orange Is The New Black contains the first ever women-in-prison narrative to be played by a real transgender woman.” But the anonymous elected representative (or someone from their staff) changed the line to the hateful “a real man pretending to be a woman.” The elected official (or their staff member) also added a link to a National Review article published last month that claimed Cox is “not a real woman.” The IP address was banned from making edits for one month. - Laura M. Browning,The A.V. Club