OMFG GUYS SO I WORK IN AN OFFICE SUPPLY STORE IN DOWNTOWN L.A. AND MOTHERFUCKIN JAMES DEEN COMES WALKING IN TO BUY AN SD CARD OMG HE’S SO MUCH HOTTER IN REAL LIFE AHHHH I WANTED TO TAKE A PICTURE WITH HIM BUT HOW COULD I SAY THAT I RECOGNIZED HIM FROM A FREAKIN BDSM VIDEO
[This post is probably pointless to anyone other than myself.]
It’s been quite a while since I haven’t written anything like this on here. Been a while since I reminded myself how much you mean to me and how much you’ve meant to me for the past… 12 months.
12 months ago I happend to stumble upon your voice -and literally your voice only- as I listened to a song titled “Because” without knowing who that beautiful angel-like voice belonged to. “Paradise” made me realize who that alluring voice belonged to, and made me fall in love with your physical appearance aswell.
It’s strange. Never believed in love at first sight/ listen but now, one year later, I must admit that you completely had that effect on me. Effect that has lasted for so long and will last for a long time in the future.
Because you helped me overcome one of the hardest moments in my life in which my ex-boyfriend left me feeling alone and wanting to die.
Today I woke up wishing you were lying down beside me, eager to spend this “anniversary” together. I’ve said this many times and I’ll say it again; I will never regret loving you this much, because loving you makes me so extremely happy, you can’t even imagine, baby. The things I’ve written on POI, plus the huge amount of things I’ve written here, as different as the content may be, are all material proof of how much you mean to me.
Words can never fully express what goes through my mind everytime I hear your voice, or see your smile, but I’ll keep on trying to write things that somehow manage to express such feelings, even if they will never be 100% accurate.
Going through my blog, I’ve seen posts I wrote about him a year ago, and I must say that my feelings have matured, but more than changed I’d rather say… evolved into something stronger and everlasting.
This post is pointless, but like I’ve said before, this blog is my diary, mostly dedicated to what I feel in general and what you make me feel, in particular.
Hopefully one year from now, I’ll be able to read this and smile at the thought of how much you mean to me. Because you’ll always mean this much to me. No other is capable of making me cry, making my heart ache, making me shiver at the sound of his voice… make me feel overwhelmed at the happiness his existence causes me.