#3 how i met my tulpa.
after i found out about tulpas i thought wouldn’t that be great to make that wolf i thought up into one.
i imagined her form this way and that, but it seemed ‘empty’.
i tried to imagine a place for her for maybe half an hour the first time, and was surprised at the exhaustion.
this is how it went. i struggled through thick snow, to a frozen lake, to a bridge missing a chunk of itself. sometimes i would put her form in the distance. in the middle of the bridge i fell on my back and closed my eyes. she briefly sniffed my face in walking past. a got pleasant, happy “beat” of a feeling, coming from the tummy outwards. when i opened my eyes, she was gone. i knew i imagined it, but i imagined it more spontaneoulsy then when i saw her in the distance. since you create a tulpa by believing in it and reinforcing that belief, i choose to think that she did that. i think creating another personality is like a habitual tricking of yourself that eventually rewires your brain.
i’m nowhere near saying that i have already created another personality. nothing much changed. i don’t doubt this is possible, i don’t know if i can do it. i think it’d be good for me, i think i can enjoy the process whether it works or not.