spontaneoulsy

I KIND OF SPONTANEOULSY CAME OUT TO THE STAGE MANAGEMENT DEPARTMENT IN A CLASS WE HAVE ON THURSDAY.I WAS JUST LIKE

I’M GENDER-NOT AND I USE THEY OR MALE PRONOUNS BUT PREFFERABLY THEY.

AND IT’S BEEN AMAZING AND I’VE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER. I’ve mostly noticed it in the fellow freshman however i think the others are also doing it too. But I’m not 100% certain. But yes…

I am so happy

What is my life.

Hey guys it's me Sarah :)

So Sunny spontaneoulsy blogsitted for me because I didn’t think I’d be that busy and have absolutely no internet whatsoever. But that happened so someone had to take care of my blog :D

Thank you so much Sunny <3 you did an awesome job on post choice <33 If y’all liked sunny’s blogsitting then check out her blog and maybe follow her please! :)

As for me I’ll try to make it work somehow I guess I’ll be able to come online in the evenings at least so it should be fine. And if not, I’m just gonna set a queue. :)

Thanks for sticking with me!

#3 how i met my tulpa.

after i found out about tulpas i thought wouldn’t that be great to make that wolf i thought up into one.

i imagined her form this way and that, but it seemed ‘empty’.

i tried to imagine a place for her for maybe half an hour the first time, and was surprised at the exhaustion.

this is how it went. i struggled through thick snow, to a frozen lake, to a bridge missing a chunk of itself. sometimes i would put her form in the distance. in the middle of the bridge i fell on my back and closed my eyes. she briefly sniffed my face in walking past. a got pleasant, happy “beat” of a feeling, coming from the tummy outwards. when i opened my eyes, she was gone. i knew i imagined it, but i imagined it more spontaneoulsy then when i saw her in the distance. since you create a tulpa by believing in it and reinforcing that belief, i choose to think that she did that. i think creating another personality is like a habitual tricking of yourself that eventually rewires your brain.

i’m nowhere near saying that i have already created another personality. nothing much changed. i don’t doubt this is possible, i don’t know if i can do it. i think it’d be good for me, i think i can enjoy the process whether it works or not.