"Eating Disorder" One Shot

Author: spnwolfyboys

Summary: The Winchester brothers finding out about your ED. 

Warnings: Eating Disorder, Swearing

Word Count: 929


You lay in the motel bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about what you had to eat today. You feel as though you’ve gained fifteen pounds. You didn’t get a chance to go for your normal morning run because you had slept through your alarm. You ate at a greasy burger joint and neither Sam nor Dean had left you along for a long enough time for you to get rid of the food you had eaten. Now, as you lay there, you can’t help but think about doing it. Even though you know Sam and Dean could be back any moment, you make your way over to the bathroom.

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92 Facts


Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

I was tagged by hellaunicorn :)


1. Last beverage = Tea.
2. Last phone call = The Vodafone company called me.
3. Last text message = To my uncle that I made it home safe.
4. Last song you listened to = Sexy Als Ik Dans by Nielson.
5. Last time you cried = Last night.


6. Dated someone twice = No.
7. Been cheated on = No, and I hope it stays that way.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = Yes.
9. Lost someone special = Yes, my great grandma.
10. Been depressed = I think so, haven’t been diagnosed yet.
11. Been drunk and threw up = Uhm yes. Not very proud of it but hey at least now I know how much is too much.


Black, navy blue and white.


15. Made a new friend = Si.
16. Fallen out of love = Yes.
17. Laughed until you cried = Oh yeah haha!
18. Met someone who changed you = Yes but not in a good way.
19. Found out who your true friends are = Nope.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes, mostly in a bad way.
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list = Yes, my dickish ex.


22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Oh gosh I think maybe 100?
24. Do you have any pets = I want a pug but no I don’t have any pets #sadlife #truestory
25. Do you want to change your name = No not really.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Haven’t had a birthday party thing yet but I just talked to my family.
27. What time did you wake up today = 10am.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Being on Tumblr and talking to Demi (50shadesofsupernatural).
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Me traveling the world :)
30. Last time you saw your Mother = 3 hours ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = The way I handled things in the past and just my past in general.
32. What are you listening to right now = birds.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = Yes, don’t know how this can be general information but yes :p
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now = Life.
35. Most visited webpage = Tumblr (whoops).
36. Blood type = I have no idea..
37. Nickname = Kar, Barry (because I can sound like a man when I want to), Karry Potter etc.
38. Relationship Status = Single and ready to mingle.
39. Zodiac sign = Virgo.
40. Pronouns = You mean like she?
41. Elementary = Was pretty great aside from the bullying.
42. High School = Truly horrible, can’t wait for it to end.
43. College = Fuck yeah! Want to go like ASAP.
44. Hair color = 2012: Red, 2013: Darkest Brown and now Blonde :)
45. Long or short = Short.
46. Height = 167cm.
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Nope.
48. What do you like about yourself? = My eyes :)
50. Tattoos = No but I want a sleeve on my upper arm (going a bit down on my elbow area and it stops on my shoulder blade) and a simple small tree just under the back of my neck.
51. Righty or lefty = Righty.
52. First surgery = No surgery.
53. First piercing = My ears.
54. First best friend = hannapersoona.
55. First sport you joined = Jazz-dance and I was amazing! Haha :p
56. First vacation = I think it was Vlieland. Might be wrong.
58. First pair of trainers = I don’t remember to be honest haha! 


59. Eating = Nothing, I know I should have food but yeah life choices.
60. Drinking = Nothing.
61. I’m about to = Pee.
62. Listening to = You Sexy Thing (it’ll explain itself later on).
63. Waiting for = Prince Charming and dinner.
64. Want kids? = Right now, nope. But in the future, yeeeeesssss.
65. Get Married? = Like getting married right now? Nah education first.
66. Career? = I am a babysitter (aka watching tv).


67. Lips or eyes = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = Depends.
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Oh gosh do I have to choose? I mean I’m a romantic kinda girl but you gotta be spontaneous. Both?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = ARMS! Yup definitely arms.
73. Sensitive or loud = Loud like me :)
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Trouble maker.


76. Kissed a stranger = No.
77. Drank hard liquor = My favourite kind of liquor! :)
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Ugh so many times.
79. Sex on first date = Well maybe if I was no longer a virgin and such a prude? But 99% of me says no.
80. Broke someone’s heart = Maybe?
81. Had your own heart broken = Yesss.
82. Been arrested = Nope.
83. Turned someone down = TURN DOWN FOR WHAT! *dubstep noises* But yeah.
84. Cried when someone died = Oh I can cry in the first five minutes of a romantic movie so yeah, definitely.
85. Fallen for a friend = Si, multiple times and yeah nobody liked me so whoops.


86. Yourself = Nope.
87. Miracles = I believe in miracles, since you came along, you sexy thing! Haha but no I do believe in miracles.
88. Love at first sight = Yes!
89. Heaven = No.
90. Santa Claus = ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT HE’S NOT REAL?! *overdramatically crying* But for real, no.
91. Kiss on the first date = If it’s a good date, a good and nice guy then yeah, maybe.
92. Angels = I believe in guardian angels, like people that have passed and who are watching over you (my definition of guardian angels), does that count? (a)

So yeah I’m only tagging 50shadesofsupernatural, free-will-oneshots, readerdean, wreckedcastiel, angelcatsiel and spnwolfyboys because I am a horrible person :) If you don’t want to do it that’s completely fine! xx

spnwolfyboys said:

Everywhere I look now, whether it be on twitter or on here there is people going after others for "taking sides" when in reality most of the people are just speaking the truth about Siva playing the victim. All he has done since the split/break up is go to media outlets and talk to them, and go to the beach... where there is media people taking pictures. He has done nothing music wise it seems, while there is all the other boys at least doing something without the aid of media outlets!

Yessss, I’m so glad you get it! 

I just think he’s all talk. He can act all high and mighty after he releases some music, I don’t really care, but for right now, he can’t say shit! He has nothing to back up what he’s said. At least there’s people tweeting about Nathan and Tom’s music because they’re actually working on it right now jfc 

I was tagged by game-of-assbutts.

1. Always post the rules 2. Answer the set of questions listed by the tagger 
3. Tag 11 and make sure they realize they were tagged.
 4. Make 11 new questions. 5. tell the person who tagged you that you answered the questions.

These are the questions that i need to answer:

  1. If this could mean that you’d have WiFi whenever and wherever you go, would you put a perfectly made big-ass cake in a trashcan (with no possibility of putting it out after)? Really good question, since I love cake as much Dean like pie… But it’s WiFi we’re talking about!! So I guess, I’d trow away the cake… :(
  2. What is the first thing you would say/do if you met Umbridge in the middle of the street? What can I say? That’s a pretty fugly dress you’re wearing… XD Srsly tho, Idk… 
  3. (Classic question): name a celebrity you’d like to have sex with, one you’d like to kill, one you’d like to have as a sibling and one you’d like to have as a best friend. Dylan O’brien, Justin Bieber, Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki. :D
  4. In which Hogwarts house you think you’d be in and why? HufflePuff, because I’m very loyal and hardworking! :) 
  5. Which supernatural/mythical creature you’d want to be best friends with and what would you do together? An angel, because Castiel…
  6. If you had the possibility to leave planet Earth and go live on another planet, which one would it be? Would you take someone with you? Why? Probably Pluto, because it’s such a lonely planet (yea, it is still a planet in my heart. I won’t bring anyone with me because it’s so cold we’re going to die! XD
  7. What’s the title of the latest book you read? It was a french book: Un homme et son péché… Reaaally boring IMO! ­-_-‘
  8. If you were a dragon what colours would be your scales and wings? Red, black, silver and gold… :D
  9. What language do you speak at home? Do you know how to speak other languages than this one? I speak French at home! I also speak English and a little bit of Japanese and Korean… ^^
  10. Where do you live (country or state or city)? (if you don’t want to answer it’s fine) Canada FTW! :P
  11. If you could do a musical for one of your fandoms, which one would it be? It won’t be a surprise for anyone: Supernatural!! *___*

These are the questions for the people I tagged:

  1. What do you love the most about yourself?
  2. Favourite actor/actress?
  3. If you could marry any character from a TV Show, movie or book, who would it be?
  4. Would you rather be deaf, mute or blind?
  5. What is your theme song?
  6. What is your secret talent? :)
  7. Favourite fandom? Why?
  8. Have you ever had something happen to you that you thought was bad but it turned out to be for the best?
  9. If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be?
  10. What’s the #1 most played song on your iPod?


everythingthatmakesnothing, spiritwarrior2313, autumn-supernatural, croctile, spnwolfyboys, i-let-cas-touch-it.

"Recovery is a Bumpy Road (Final Part of Eating Disorder)" One Shot

Author: spnwolfyboys

Summary: Part 4 (Final part) of the Winchester brothers finding out the reader as an ED

Warnings: Eating Disorder, Suicide mentioned

Word Count: 2390


The next morning, you wake up at the crack of dawn. You look around and notice that Sam and Dean are still fast asleep. Then it dawns on you, you had told Dean everything and then you ate food without puking it up. The apple sits heavy in your stomach, and you want to get it out of your body, along with the chocolate bar from yesterday. You know that it would hurt Dean and Sam if you did do that, especially since you had just asked for help stopping.

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Tagged by Spnwolfyboys

Rule #1 Always post the rules.
Rule #2 Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked, then write 10 new ones.
Rule #3 Tag 5 people and tag them in this post.
Rule #4 Tell them you tagged 

Questions I was asked:

1. If you could travel anywhere in the world,where would you go?
Probably Ireland, because I have always wanted to ride horses along the beaches there.

2. Last time you cried?

3. Favourite childhood memory?
Probably getting my first cat!

4. What is your favourite colour?
Lime Green

5. Have you ever been drunk?

6. Are you procrastinating from something at the moment?

7. If you answered yes above, to what?
Studying for finals and writing a paper

8. Favourite restaurant?
Noodles and Company

9. Have you ever stayed awake for more than 24 hours?
Yes, whenever I fly overseas

10. Last time you called a loved one?
Last week

My Questions:

1. Frozen yogurt or ice cream?

2. Favorite singer not in a band?

3. Last person you saw in concert?

4. Favorite sport?

5. Favorite book?

6. Favorite actor and actress?

7. Favorite couple (real or fictional)?

8. Do you like animals (if so what kind is your favorite)?

9. What is your comfort food?

10. How many siblings do you have?

I am tagging:

strokejayslizard, hortonhearsahensley, mixtapestraightoutof-94, bbynathan, parker-doyoupedal

So, I normally don’t do promos, but I found an ask prompt thing where one of the questions was if you knew my first name. I thought it would be interesting to do it as a promo game, because those who know my real first name (or rather, know how to spell it) have followed me on tumblr for at least three years. And Lindsay has not only followed me and been my friend for three-some years, but she is utterly amazing, and I highly advise that you follow her.
About two years ago (maybe more, my concept of time is really whacked when it’s 1 AM in the morning), I was really sick in the hospital and receiving treatment for an eating disorder. I got out, recovered, did well, but obviously it was still hard. Lindsay, that following Christmas sent me a box with 300+ little handwritten notes for me to open up throughout the year. And she did the same this Christmas, too - AND, she sent me a shoe box full of letters to open on certain occasions (ie when I’m sad, 16th birthday, etc). Lindsay is the kindest, most loving person I have met in my entire life. She knows every piece of me, she (outside of my parents) knows me better than anyone in this world. She is so generous and wonderful. She deserves everything in the world. And, I know a lot of my followers like Supernatural and Teen Wolf, and she blogs about that! I highly suggest you follow her, because she not only wins my promo game, but she has always won my trust - and that’s hard to get. She is amazing.

spnwolfyboys said:

What is Siva doing now? Wait let me guess he's playing the victim and now Nareesha is getting all bitched out about someone mentioning Siva being a douche bag. I can't believe that Siva is taking such low blows towards the other guys. I don't get why he is still whining about "his roll in the band". I find this whole Siva drama kinda funny...

Wow, you are spot on! Lol 

It is funny! I tweeted Nathan “these hoes ain’t loyal” and I said Fusion Fest was gonna be awkward and people felt like…I was attacking Siva and taking sides or something?? And I totally wasn’t, I just made a joke lol 

I forgot, you can’t joke about anything on Twitter because someone is bound to take offense 🙊

Hey you guys,

You might not even care but I’m truly sorry that I haven’t answered your ‘tagged by’ yet. It’s not that I’ve been busy I just haven’t been feeling well at all, don’t want to go into details but yeah. I know this isn’t an excuse and I shouldn’t even use it as one but I am truly sorry. I hope I’ll be happier soon so I can answer them.

I hope you can understand.

Thank you and remember: I love you all!


"Distorted Eating (Part 2 of Eating Disorder)" One Shot

Author: spnwolfyboys

Summary: Part 2 - The Winchester brothers finding out about your ED. 

Warnings: Eating Disorder

Word Count: 1190

A/N: If need be, I will write a third part. I just didn’t want it to be a fluffy, typical, “all’s alright” type of thing.


You had gained enough distance between you, the motel and the Winchester brothers. You found a tree, well many trees since you were after all in a forest, but the perfect tree to climb up. Your feet slip out from underneath you as you step on an unstable tree branch, but you keep going as you hear Dean calling out your name.

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Tagged by spnwolfyboys

  1. What is your biggest fear? Not having a career that I love.
  2. If you could go back in time and fix one thing, what would you fix? Working hard at school. 
  3. What is your favourite store to shop at? V.S Pink.
  4. Do you have any pets? If yes, what? Cat [Mittens], Turtle [Rex], Dog [Zuko]
  5. What is the last movie you cried while watching? I just watched Captain America: The Winter Soldier. 
  6. If you had to live in one place for the rest of your life, where would you live? Anywhere in CANADA, I love this country!
  7. What is your favourite musician/band? Marianas Trench and Pink. 
  8. How many concerts have you been to? As far as I can remember about 17………6 of them were Marianas Trench (w/half of those ones being FREE!!)
  9. Would you rather be able to go to as many concerts as you want or be able to visit your favourite tv show set only once? Seeing as my favourite shows are no longer on air, and their sets have been torn down…..I’d go with seeing as many concerts as I want!
  10. What is the last book you read? I’m still reading TFIOS, but I’ve been reading it since December…..I really need to finish it sometime soon. 
  11. Do you have a messy or clean room? Appearances can be deceiving…..its a bit of both. 

Concerts I have been to:

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I was tagged by meltedbypeoplewhodontexist :) thank you so much for thinking of me, love! Happy Easter :)
Rule #1 Always post the rules.
Rule #2 Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked, then write 10 new ones.
Rule #3 Tag 10 (I’m changing it to five because ain’t nobody got time for this shit on Easter) people and tag them in this post.
Rule #4 Tell them you tagged
Questions I was asked
1. When did you first sign up on tumblr? (Like how long ago)
Three or four years ago.
2. Do you have any siblings and what type of relationship do you share with them?
I have none.
3. What is your favourite TV show?
Once Upon A Time
4. Favourite Disney movie?
Beauty and the Beast
5. Favourite Oscar Nomination movie? Why?
Honestly I have no clue what was nominated but I assume Frozen was because I think I heard something about that? So out of pure oblivion I’ll just say Frozen.
6. Favourite Actress at the moment? Why?
Susan Egan is my favourite Broadway actress because she’s so incredibly talented, funny, and I think anyone could aspire to be as talented as her.
7. Favourite Actor at the moment? Why?
Theo James because he’s my baby okay
8. Who do you look up to (idol)?
Susan Egan, Demi Lovato and various fictional characters…Belle from Beauty and the Beast, Belle from Once Upon A Time, Tris from Divergent
9. Who is your favourite artist/band?
Probably Demi Lovato
10. What country would you love to live in?
My questions for those that I tag:
What is your favourite ice cream flavour?
If you could only re-read (you can read other books for the first time) one book for the next year, what would it be? (I would say for the rest of your life, but that would just be cruel haha)
Soda or juice?
Favourite TV show?
Favourite actor/actress in a TV show?
Favourite actor/actress in a movie?
Do you speak any languages other than your own? Are there any you would like to learn?
If you could buy one movie on DVD right now, it would be:
If you could buy one CD right now, it would be:
Do you have any posters in your room?
I tagged: loveisashouttoinevitableoblivion allthesemanyfandoms believeinthesimple maybeimcrazynotalotjustalittle erinsfever spnwolfyboys

You can tell a lot about the person from what they listen to. Hit shuffle on your iPod and list first 10 songs and then tag 10 people. I was tagged by mooseandsquirrelsfamilybusiness.

1. Masterpiece Theatre I ~ Marianas Trench
2. Missing Persons 1&2 ~ Onerepublic
3. Wherever this Goes ~ The Fray
4. Theme Spudgy W.A.N.K. (don’t ask)
5. Happy ~ Leona Lewis
6. Field Day ~ Saltnpaper
7. Our Game ~ TVXQ
8. 1.03 ~ Nell
9. Teenager in Love ~ Neon Trees
10. Sovereign Light Café ~ Keane

I’m tagging these blogs: itsjustjensen, sonofafreckle, salt-gas-fire, theconsultingimpala, team-free-kick-ass, joannachettiar, spnwolfyboys, game-of-assbutts, thesassydean, fuzzy-meowcifer.

spnwolfyboys said:

Hi, your blog is your blog. If you want to post pics of yourself and reblog stuff, then go right ahead. If people don't like what you post then thats their fault and they can unfollow you. You just keep being yourself and doing what you want. Thats what Tumblr is about!

Thank you so much! I really needed to hear that. I have been getting some complaints but they were anonymous so I didn’t and still don’t know if it was some of you guys or just one that’s also possible. But yeah so I just wondered but thank you! It’s really kind of you to say that and I truly appreciate it :) Thanks! xxx

"It Will Be Alright" Oneshot

Author: spnwolfyboys

Summary: The reader finds out that their best friend (in this the friend is female) has been killed in a car accident and the aftermath of that news takes its toll on the reader.

Warnings: Panic Attack, Mention of Death, Depression 

Word Count: 1340

Fic/Link to Fic: (x)

You lay in your bed, curled up in a small ball. A pit in your stomach, you couldn’t wrap your head around the news that your best friend was killed in a car accident. Everything hurt and ached. Your head was throbbing, making the room spin if you opened your eyes. You knew you had to get up out of bed; you were worrying the Winchester’s. Driving them crazy, as no matter what they tried you would not leave your room for the past three days.

"Road to Recovery (Eating Disorder Part 3)" One Shot

Author: spnwolfyboys

Summary: Part 3 of the Winchester brothers find out the reader has an ED

Warnings: Eating Disorder

Word Count: 1490 (a little long but I wanted to get some information in there)


It’s been two weeks since Sam and Dean had found out about your eating disorder. They had put you strictly on research duty and forced you sit through meals with them, even if you refused to eat anything. Dean would buy you your favorite snacks and foods, in hopes that you eat. Whenever you did eat, whether it be out of weakness or because you were forced to eat something, you always quickly made your way to the nearest bathroom and threw it all up. You always felt disgusting afterwards but you couldn’t break the cycle, at least not alone. You still hadn’t spoken to either Dean or Sam about what started all of this, nor to ask for help. You didn’t know how to do that. You never had people to help you out in your life.

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spnwolfyboys said:

You are so pretty! :) and who cares if the sweater is intended for guys, their sweaters are always more comfy than the ones intended for females. You rock that sweater and the selfie!

Nawh that’s so nice of you haha! :) I know right! They’re just so comfortable and soft. Thank you, it’s really kind of you :) xx