spiraling-me

yetanotherobsessivereader asked:

Alone with you was so heartbreaking. You made me cry. Seriously, my heart really hurt for Derek. Such beautiful writing full of pathos. You really drove home just how much suffering Derek has been through, and how he picks himself up again and again and carries on. He deserves all the good things. He deserves stiles. And you made me feel all of it. And that last as sentence? Made me so happy. Thank you for sharing this fic. It was incredible.

So I started reading that like this because you are just the sweetest and I don’t know how to deal with that except for EEEEEEEEEP.

But that quickly morphed into this-

BECAUSE YES YES DEREK DOES DESERVE ALL THE GOOD THINGS AND STILES AND A FREAKIN’ MAGIC LAMP AND GUMMY BEARS THAT SING HIM HAPPY SONGS!!!!

Which then made me spiral down into…

Because Derek feels gets me right in the gut every time.

Mostly though, I am just so happy you liked it <3

Thank you for reading love and taking the time to write all that out. Seriously, just *hugs and hugs and hugs, and whoops, am I crushing you?*

<3<3<3

So I watched owari no seraph a couple days back and basically

but then

why am I always right

also, I’m in love

how does one not expect me to ship yuuichiro x mikaela

I was looking forward to shippy moments but then

and then denial takes over much like how I still believes Hide is alive in the anime cuz let’s be real

only this time

I WAS FUCKING RIGHT WHAT THE FFF

wait

so conclusion:

*escorts myself into owari no seraph hell* EXCUSE ME

things that are decidedly less fun in hindsight #543: may’s face in the split second after jemma says ‘i shot someone’

there’s a tiny moment where you can actually see the horror wash over her face, before she realises that jemma (probably) wouldn’t be talking like that if she’d actually killed someone, so she blinks it away and gives her trademark may sigh and everything’s alright

but her reflexive reaction was definitely not one of resigned acceptance. her reflexive reaction is deeply, deeply troubled. and now we know why.

The ouija penis thing never happened and I’m really disappointed

summercicada asked:

ugh I have trouble sleeping because anxiety as well, how do you deal?!

- draw to distract myself

- have a hot bath to relax muscle tension and soothe body pains that would otherwise send me spiralling into a health anxiety-induced panic attack

- try and fall asleep in front of a calming movie 

- fail and end up staying awake til sunrise when my mind is so exhausted it has no choice but to fall asleep

- feel shit all day because I’m tired and weak from being tense with anxiety all night

- rinse and repeat