Yesterday after school, I was walking with a friend and I was really happy so I just started skipping and humming a song. My friend told me I shouldn’t do that, we’re high schoolers now and that’s childish. I said to her that if I’m not allowed to do things that make me happy just because I’m getting older, I don’t want to grow up. If I want to skip because it makes me happy then goddammit I’m going to skip along through my whole life. I’m going to be an old granny skipping down the street holding my grandchild’s hand. Life is no fun if you have to be completely mature.

I'm crying right now. I love you all. Reading all these messages and knowing that so many people care, just made me realize how important my life really is.

He might have left me, I don’t know if he’ll ever take me back, but if he doesn’t, I know that there are other people out there for me. 

I can’t express how much I love you guys. You are all so beautiful and I can’t thank you enough. 

I wish I could just hug all of you.

Especially you, Angela.

When I get to school tomorrow I’m giving you the biggest hug ever.

And to everyone else:

-opens arms widely-

I can’t believe this.

No one has ever cared for me to this extremity. 

Reading the words, “I love you and care for you, please stay with us” really made me breakdown crying.

Thank you everyone.

I really really want you all to know that I really can’t fully express my gratitude for you guys, for making me realize there are other things out there in the world and there is a future for me.

What I need to do tomorrow because I’m very forgetful:

  • hang the rest of my pictures
  • make another list for my birthday stuff
  • go through clothes/shoes and bag what I don’t want do later
  • start throwing out anything I’m not moving with me do later
  • get a lil farther in death note
  • tell mom to buy pizza
  • go through my anime list again and see what I have left
  • put away my giant pile of laundry
  • yeah get some sleep tonight
For the guy that means most.

It might sound so cliché but whenever I’m with you, I feel like the happiest person in the world. I hate saying good-bye even though we would see each other again the next day. I miss you the second you leave. I love the way you smell when we cuddle and hug. When your lips meet mine, it’s the most amazing feeling ever. Especially those kisses where you just attack my whole face. Tomorrow, we’ll be another month closer to our anniversary. You’re that someone I can’t imagine living without. You’re mine and will forever be mine. I love you with all that I am, all that I was, and all I will ever be. Even though no one can tell the future, all I know is that I see you with me in it. We’re young, and everyone knows that. We both know that. But we know what we want. Eff what other people say. They don’t know what we feel, and never will know. Most teenagers at this age date and things fall apart in the end because of a misunderstanding or the other was unfaithful. There’s SO many different reasons, but, it comes down to one, and only one thing. You’re just not right for each other. I know that you are the one. We met in the most unusual way, and fell for each other in the most unusual way. But you know what?  I wouldn’t change anything about us for the world. I bet it’ll be an awesomely awkward story to tell our children. God put you in my life and I am more than blessed. I trust you to hold my heart and never let go. I can tell you anything and know you wouldn’t judge me. I love everything about you. Your hair, your eyes, your smile, your lips, the way you hold me. The’s not heaven, but oh my goodness, it sure feels like it. My head won’t stop thinking about you. My love for you sometimes gives me this heavy feeling in my chest. It hurts, but it feels good. There’s only one way I can explain it: too much love for my body to handle. Many nights, I’d lay awake and think about you. Then I get lonely because you’re not here to sleep with me. And when I say sleep, I don’t mean it in a sexual way. Just lovely, silent sleep so I could wake up to your face in the morning. I can’t wait for the rest of our lives together to begin. And although we can’t talk everyday because of school, I know that it’ll be all worth it in the end. You’re the cutest guy in the world even though you don’t believe me when I say it. I love you. ♥