(note: we got your other messages, just so you know, that’s the reason i’m replying)
first thing i want to say is that mod s was not directing v’s anger at you specifically - we have like 3700 followers or something, the anger was directed at anyone with dodgy opinions. it wasn’t personally directed at you, just a kind of. general anger
and secondly - tbh from what you’ve said in just these few messages it does sound like you could be autistic? (and, note, part of my autism is struggling a lot with guilt and feeling like i’ve wronged people, which seems to be how you feel right now so just. know that i am not yelling at you, you’re not a bad person or anything, but thank you for apologising)
but it also sounds like you might have some internalised ableism to work out, which we all do, really. you said in another message you had autistic traits but ‘not enough to be diagnosed’ - maybe explore this if you want to? we have a lot of resources on our ‘resources’ page.
important: if you know you are allistic, don’t reblog posts that autistic people are meant to relate to. if you think you could be autistic, it’s okay to look further into this. even if you really think you’re allistic, sometimes it doesn’t harm to look at resources on self diagnosis.
the point of this message is basically:
a. you’re not a bad person, which possibly you don’t actually need me to say - i’m just going off the kind of things i feel when i send apologies - but i will say it anyway. you sent us a message that voiced a slightly dodgy opinion, but that opinion may just have been informed by ignorance and internalised ableism. we all have bad opinions at some point.
b. maybe look into whether you’re autistic? like i said, we have a lot of resources on our resources page [link]
i hope this reply is alright, anon
- mod a