Toshimaru Nakamura “Egrets”

To fans of free improvisation and the Japanese onkyo, or noise scene, Toshimaru Nakamura needs no introduction; to newcomers, the name of his instrument the no-input mixing board may sound forbidding, as if its output would sound more machine than music. But for over a decade, Nakamura has cultivated a world of tones from this unlikely instrument, both harsh and mesmerizing, humanist and expansive with something to lure in music fans of any stripe.

(by Samadhisound)

I woke up at 2am, because I was thirsty.

I filled a water bottle, and opened up my laptop—so I could entertain myself while forcing down some fluids.

I haven’t touched the water.  

Instead, I decided to spend the past 1.5 hours reading about calculus…

Because deciding to learn complex mathematics, when I’m half asleep, is the sort of thing I like to do with my spare time.

I accept the fact that this is abnormal and I am unmoved.

I may or may not be a psychopath.


Shawn Feeney’s 2002 electronic realization of Cornelius Cardew’s graphic score Treatise. Sine waves are generated from the black areas of the score as it scrolls from right to left, with the y-axis corresponding to pitch. An imaginary vertical line in the center of the screen is the “sounding membrane” (

What are you most afraid of?

I need to have an answer to this tomorrow. So far it’s all sounding a little dramatic.

I’m afraid that I’ve gotten too comfortable with my life, that I’m on the peak of what is inevitably just another hill.

I don’t know what’s going to push me down next, I just hope I’m ready to deal with it.