Okay, so I have sight-sound synesthesia. That means that I see sounds. Well, it’s not EXACTLY seeing as in they’re a thing I see as being out and about in the world around me or anything, it’s more like seeing them “behind my eyes” as I’ve always put it. It’s kind of a separate sense altogether, in a way. Synesthesia is where the wires of perception get crossed and your senses overlap. So it’s kind of like a separate thing entirely; I see, I hear, and I synesthese. Sounds register as having color, shape, direction, depth, intensity, brightness, and they move in and out of the sense. For example, a well tuned middle A on a piano is spherical, rich royal blue, and comes in from behind and curves down until it flattens out into a ripple-like disc shape. Cello registers as a deep purple/mahogany color, and has a thick thread-like shape that fades out at the edges like someone blurred it in photoshop; for some reason, Josh Groban’s voice is extremely similar. I can also tell when something’s been autotuned cuz it looks like a scalene cone sort of thing (I know that’s not a thing but now it is). Everyone’s voice has a unique color and shape, and sometimes I notice the shape more than the color and vice versa. The cool thing is in music, the shapes and colors move with the melody, and it’s just really awesome to experience. It’s not something I notice ALL the time; most of the time it’s just there in the background, the way you feel air around you. You only notice when something’s unique about it– you feel the breeze, or if it’s cold or hot or something. It’s like that with the sightsound, too.
All that background is leading up to this: Today I bought the American Beauty/American Psycho album, and I got to Novocaine, and THAT THING THEY DO ON THE “FILLED IT UP WITH NOVOCAINE" LINE IS ACTUALLY LITERALLY 100% ABSOLUTELY THE COOLEST MOST AMAZING SOUND EVER IT’S BEAUTIFUL. I’m seriously freaking the heck out over it, I’ve listened to this song 12x in a row I kid you not, I just can’t get over it!!!!!!
Patrick’s voice to begin with is seriously one of my favorite things because it’s the shape I notice most– it’s really fun and unique, cuz it’s sharp. Not sure how else to describe it, but it’s got sharp points and tips, but all really close together. And the edges of it are like torn paper, and it sits at the top of my ‘line of sight;’ I don’t notice the color that much, it’s kind of a bright intense redgreenblack??? I don’t know, it’s hard to describe, and I can’t find a swatch that matches. But that “filled it up with novocaine,” it just swoops back and shears the edges like a razor blade and it leaves this shredded, frayed gradient of black and silver and grey tatters, and the way it curves toward the back under one layer and then loops around back toward the front and then shoots up and trails off into the top and kind of explodes on “just stuck” and falls down on everything, and the way the drums pool out behind it the whole time with this deep dark red ripple disk and I AM ACTUALLY DYING OVER HERE IM FREAKING OUT SO MUCH IT’S BEAUTIFUL AND I CAN’T EVEN DRAW IT CUZ I CAN’T DRAW IN 3D UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH
Having a similar though slightly toned down freak out over that part in Uma Thurman where it goes “I slept in last nights clothes and tomorrow’s dreams,” cuz that spikes so clearly up and down over and under that bottom base line that’s humming along in the back, and it’s like watching someone wrap a ribbon around a rail but with big points instead of soft curves and it just hangs there and GAH
FALL OUT BOY IS AMAZING AND I LOVE THIS SO MUCH I’M GOING TO EXPLODE