The fear of doing you.. The start of my shameless journey
After trying to explain to my father I wanted to change to my lucrative career path of becoming a lawyer and become a writer instead, I then began to claim my title. It took me a while to get to grips with owning my new identity, after countless years of automatically answering “lawyer” when people asked me what I wanted to be when I was older.
Fast forward today, although I have now registered my new automated answer of “writer”, it has been hard for me to actually embark upon this new identity of mine. I made the decision to start blogging years ago, but it has been a struggle to actually pursue this. When I was on my journey of becoming a lawyer I studied it at college (although I failed), I even went to the lengths of finding my self a mentor. But to open up my laptop and do something I simply love proved a hard task. I made excuse after excuse - “I’m busy”, “I don’t have the time” etc. I started my blog three or four times on three or four different platforms. Nevertheless, here I am tapping away at my keyboard, taking the first steps of many.
As an introvert and someone who spends a lot of time in their head, I reflected on why I wasn’t able to pursue my passion and embrace my talent. Fear. My inner self found the courage and finally answered me. I was afraid to blog. I was afraid to do what I love. I was afraid to do me..
But I am tired of being afraid to embark upon my journey and this refusal of accepting this fear has placed me on another journey - The Shameless journey. My cousin told me about the Shameless journey last year and has been sticking to it ever since, she is doing soo well and is frankly inspiring! The Shameless journey was created by Maya Washington a multi-talented female who set out an a social experiment to shamelessly promote herself on all social media platforms in order to combat her fear of social acceptance and anxiety for 365 days. Check out her YouTube video here.
I am planning to do the same. 10 tweets a day, 4 blog posts and 3 Instagram photos a week. I will promote myself and my work shamelessly for 365 starting from today! I will keep you up to date with my progress.
I must admit, I’m a little scared, but I have to do this!
Love & blessings