The fear of doing you.. The start of my shameless journey

After trying to explain to my father I wanted to change to my lucrative career path of becoming a lawyer and become a writer instead, I then began to claim my title. It took me a while to get to grips with owning my new identity, after countless years of automatically answering “lawyer” when people asked me what I wanted to be when I was older. 

Fast forward today, although I have now registered my new automated answer of “writer”, it has been hard for me to actually embark upon this new identity of mine. I made the decision to start blogging years ago, but it has been a struggle to actually pursue this. When I was on my journey of becoming a lawyer I studied it at college (although I failed), I even went to the lengths of finding my self a mentor. But to open up my laptop and do something I simply love proved a hard task. I made excuse after excuse - “I’m busy”, “I don’t have the time” etc. I started my blog three or four times on three or four different platforms. Nevertheless, here I am tapping away at my keyboard, taking the first steps of many. 

As an introvert and someone who spends a lot of time in their head, I reflected on why I wasn’t able to pursue my passion and embrace my talent. Fear. My inner self found the courage and finally answered me. I was afraid to blog. I was afraid to do what I love. I was afraid to do me..

But I am tired of being afraid to embark upon my journey and this refusal of accepting this fear has placed me on another journey - The Shameless journey. My cousin told me about the Shameless journey last year and has been sticking to it ever since, she is doing soo well and is frankly inspiring! The Shameless journey was created by Maya Washington a multi-talented female who set out an a social experiment to shamelessly promote herself on all social media platforms in order to combat her fear of social acceptance and anxiety for 365 days. Check out her YouTube video here

I am planning to do the same. 10 tweets a day, 4 blog posts and 3 Instagram photos a week. I will promote myself and my work shamelessly for 365 starting from today! I will keep you up to date with my progress.

I must admit, I’m a little scared, but I have to do this! 

Love & blessings 

Vikki x

 

The beginning of my #shamelessjourney there is so much more to me and my personality that the world has yet to see. It’s time for me to break out and not be so reserved. For what?! I’m awesome, and the world deserves to know! #shamelessmaya #shamelessjourney #dayone #lordhelpme

Self Reflection.. A new journey

I have been a little M.I.A (missing in action) of late from all my social network platforms. My first year at uni is coming to end so the work load has been a little more than usual to say the least. Due to the fact the school holidays are upon us, my job as a play-worker has become a bit more demanding. All in all, my juggling has been a little off of late.

I attempted to blog a #MondayMotivation, but received slight writers block, which is why I opted for this post instead - Self reflection..

Despite the fact I have not been able to focus on my blog as I would like to and stick to my #ShamelessJourney as promised. I have found myself in a REALLY good place in my life right now. Don’t feel anxious about anything of such, I feel pretty happy and content. I just feel good. Things are looking up. Not even that the sun is actually shining here in London! But even though I’m in a good place, there is ALWAYS room for improvement. 

I believe one of our main purposes of life is to become the best version of ourselves as humanly possible. I like to call this person our potential self. Our potential self is meant to be financially stable, emotionally and spiritually sound and mentally and physically agile. For a good number of months I’ve been striving to achieve these five things. I wish to get as close as possible to my potential self. 

As I journey through life, I realize I am lacking in the spiritual department. To give a little context, my grandparents are devout Christians, my father is an agnostic and my mother is a mixture between Rastafarian and another spiritual denomination. And I am just purely spiritual. I don’t adhere to any religious practices, rules or structure. Because of this I find it hard to develop a lasting, meaningful, consistent connection with God. I’m not saying saying, I’m going to go on a Sabbatical like Elizabeth Gilbert in “Eat Pray Love” (amazing book by the way), but I will embark on a spiritual journey between the pages of a book my mother gave to me..

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So even though I’m in a good place right now, I’m looking to be in an even better place after this book. 

Although I’m even already on my #ShamelessJourney (which I need to pull up my socks on and will get back on it). I am looking forward to this new journey and will try to keep you up to date. 

Love & blessings 

Vikki xx

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