I’ve never really been the jealous or possessive type of girlfriend, and I don’t think I ever will be. Sure, small amounts of jealousy can be healthy, I’ll give it that— I can admit to feeling it, but too much makes me feel insecure. I am scared of losing my boyfriend and that’s what sets me on edge. At the same time though, I trust him immensely.
I guess my point here is that when I saw those tweets between him and his former best-friend (a girl that I used to be best friends with in high school) it brought up a lot of jealousy and insecurities that I don’t like to feel. She tweeted that she “isn’t one to be put on a back burner, she wants to be on the front, right next to him” like… that’s not where you belong. That’s my place, but more-so, that’s his family’s place. I got really fucking upset because I remembered all the times she stole away a guy’s attention by throwing pity-fits like that, or offering them things that I didn’t want to. The good thing is though that my boyfriend didn’t tweet anything that upset me. He handled it very maturely despite how much I know it probably hurt his feelings. When we talked about it later, I told him why I felt so concerned about him possibly contacting her and reconnecting. I know her feelings for him hasn’t changed since they dated, they will likely always be there. I asked my boyfriend, “Do I have anything to worry about?” Which of course he replied with, “absolutely not,” and more super sweet things. And I believe him. That’s the point of a relationship is trust— and I always will until he proves me wrong.
To wrap this all up, I’m really glad that this minor thing happened. It gave me a chance to show him that even though it upset me, I could talk to him about my feelings and insecurities and speak like an adult. The insecurities and doubt turned into confidence again that my boyfriend wants me and only me. No one is my competition … I am their competition. If someone gets his attention and can prove that they will love him more than I ever possibly could, then so be it. I’ve never been more content, secure, and happy with a guy before.
And as much as babe would probably like to see me take a bitch down for being all over him, it won’t happen… unless he’s super uncomfortable and she is sexually assaulting him.